Thursday, January 06, 2011
Just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years and feeling really down. Am in the process of taking my necessaries to my parents 2 room condo until I find a place of my own. Have no idea how I'm going to do that on my salary, which is barely $1,000 a month.
I just feel numb. He's the only man I ever loved for any amount of time, much less 5 years. All of my best memories of the last 5 years are with him. I feel embarrassed of all things, because everyone was so sure it would work out and we were perfect for each other. Life sure if full of surprises.
I have to be positive that something good will come my way soon because it's just been so hard. Two years of a disastrous attempt at sitting for the CPA (twice they denied my application over bureaucratic fine print and they lost my case that challenged my qualifications to sit after I spend $30,000 on ANOTHER degree to meet their requirements) and now a failed relationship. The more "good" decisions I make, the worse things get.
Life is full of surprises, I'm just ready for a good one for a change. Time to visit my nephews I think. They're 3 and 4 yrs old and think I'm da bomb! :-) Nothing like a little toddler love to boost your self esteem!
I think I feel worst for my cat though. He was SOOOOOPER happy in our big town house, three floors to run around and no kids or other pets. Now it's back to one room, visiting children and my mom's b*tchy cat that he's afraid of! Poor guy...