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Fear of Photography

Thursday, January 06, 2011

This year I'll be getting married and the fear of photographs of this eventful day existing into perpetuity has me scared enough to get back into a healthy lifestyle. I discovered this as the root and ultimate motivation behind my committment to a healthier Eileen in 2011 and couldn't help but find it ridiculous.

Honestly, I know I haven't been living healthy: no exercise, eating junk regularly, garbage in/garbage out the whole 9 yards. What is motivating me? The joy of living longer, better, happier, of sharing more moments with my daughter and family... in addition to a better overall life... nope. Fear of a picture existing for eternity of me fat. Yup, ridiculous!

But I'm not alone. I was talking to another woman yesterday, and her motivation was roughly the same. Her son is graduating from high school and she wants to be skinny in photos! What?! Have we all lost our minds? She was skinny at her daughters graduation and can't bear the thought of herself fat in pictures.

As long as I've been a member of this site, I've been constantly impressed by those who post their "before" pictures, especially those who post them in blind faith that this is the heaviest they will ever be and their journey will lead them to an improved after photo. How brave! To put themselves out there.

But seriously, if I avoid mirrors and don't take photos of myself... does that really prevent anyone else from knowing that I'm fat?! No, of course not... and yet we seem to be able to convince ourselves otherwise. What a weird fallacy!

So today, I challenge you. Take a picture of yourself! Put it somewhere you will see it, on your fridge, computer monitor, the fridge, whatever... and stop avoiding mirrors. Do you like what you see? If so GREAT!! Keep up the good work, I hope to join you in that joy one day this year. If you don't like what you see... take one step today to put yourself on the right track and maybe another step tomorrow and... continue until you do LOVE what you see. So many of us are beautifull on the inside, but are we showing it to the rest of the world? We should. I intend to. I hope you will join me.
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    I do the exact same thing...I need to have new headshots, promotional shots etc... taken and I am horrified of how much I've gained since my last ones -- at least 20 pounds. And I refuse to get them taken until I lose the weight!

    Truth: I don't have any mirrors that are full length and the other day I'm in the dressing room just thinking...OMG I am going to have an anxiety was the first time I've seen below my waist in two years....horrifying.

    Know that you are not alone!
    2041 days ago
  • v KLR7399
    Loved your blog! I think it's so true, I look at people who post pics and think 'God Bless' I wish I had it within me to be that brave! I love the idea of taking a pic for yourself, it's time for me to stop avoiding what everyone else can plainly see!!
    2057 days ago
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