Thursday, January 06, 2011
Nope, I'm not talking about snow (though my driveway is a doozy) - I'm talking about slipping from my commitment to my health. The first few days of the year were sort of a cinch. I ate when I was hungry. I stopped when I was satisfied. I felt good. Then, last night came, and I did exactly what I didn't want to do - I ate when I wasn't hungry.
We had a nice dinner. Spiced Chicken with Black Eyed Peas and Brown Rice. I had a square of dark chocolate after dinner. I was satisfied. When the kids went to bed, I had my evening snack. I was satisfied. Then, without thinking about it, out came the pretzels. I didn't need them, but I wanted them. I knew, when I took them out of the pantry, that one serving wasn't going to cut it.
I finished the bag.
Now, granted, it wasn't a huge bag, and I could have made far worse choices, than pretzels. I know all these things, but it doesn't matter. The truth is, I ate when I wasn't hungry, and for that, I will pay, with a lovely tummy ache, a ton of water retention, and a puffy face. And as I ate the alleged pretzels, I knew all these things, and chose to tell myself, "Meh, you won't do this tomorrow, so don't worry about it."
Isn't it funny how we make deals with ourselves, deny that this isn't normal behavior, and engage in habits that hurt us? Hmph.
So, moving on... How will today be different? Today is busy. I have an awful cold, 2 kids to love and take care of, and a ton of driving to do. We are going to see Disney on Ice tonight. I want to be normal today. I want to be positive about the day ahead. So, here are my goals and plans:
Today I will honor myself. I will make lovely meals and snacks, and remain attentive to my hunger and satisfaction cues. I will practice patience with that nasty monster in my head, that tells me it's okay to eat when I'm not hungry. I will make today a great day. I am sleepy, sick with a cold, and upset with my actions last night - but today can be better, and it will be.