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Get me some super glue STAT.

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

My best friends' husband died yesterday after a year long battle with cancer. He was 48 and left my friend and 7 year old son behind. It seems like cancer and terminal illnesses have touched everyone around me this past year and now it looks like the end is near for two more friends. It's hard to not want to pull the blankets up over my head both figuratively and literally (I got a new down comforter for Christmas and it's rilly rilly soft) ). Heh.

I am trying to make good choices for my body and health and MENTAL health. I bought some nuts to keep in my car so when I'm starving and want to go get a burger and fries I have a backup plan. I've been drinking my water and avoiding gluten and dairy (I have food allergies) with only a few setbacks. (Damn you quiche!) My exercise is sporadic because I'm still figuring out how much my newly repaired knee can take without putting me out of commission again. I am fighting my inner voice that is telling me to have a second glass of wine because everything is SO hard. She's a real twit, I tell you. She's the one that tells me that I'm so out of shape (*again*) that nothing I do will really make a difference. She tells me that the calories really don't matter THAT much and that because I didn't sit down and eat my meal like a civilized person that it.didn't.count. I'm pretty sure you don't get meal do-overs. Um, yeah. She's THAT smart. She also tells me that that little bit of exercise I did didn't do squat.

Does anyone have some super glue? Because I need to glue her trap shut. emoticon
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    I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's husband. I'm sure she appreciates all of your love and support.
    2236 days ago
    Thanks for the nice comments, y'all. Aren't those inner voices just awful sometimes? I read something nice the other day about treating ourselves like we'd treat a toddler. As in, oh Janie is just tired/hungry/overstimulated so let's help her get more comfortable and not just blame for being cranky or whatever. I've been taking that advice to heart and have been nicer to myself with that idea in mind.

    CMRAND54, that's tough being super sensitive to gluten like that. My intolerance is much more mild than that so I don't get terribly sick, just terribly fat. (ha!) I do bloat up like crazy and feel run down, slightly flu-ish etc.. I haven't been retested for allergies in almost 20 years so I'll be interested to learn where I am today. Do you have any other allergies/intolerances?

    Shannon- thanks for sticking with me all this time. I appreciate your support and kind posts. I really means a lot to me.

    -Lisa emoticon
    2567 days ago
    I am so sorry about your best friends husband. Try to stay positive through all of the stress. Even a walk is better than sitting, and make food choices one at a time. You can do this and tell that inner voice to SHUT UP unless she has positive things to say.
    2567 days ago
    Don't listen to her!

    I've always thought that food you eat standing up has no calories, and if you eat the broken chips, it's OK, because the calories all leak out when the chips break.

    Just kidding.

    I've been gluten intolerant for 15 years, and I don't cheat. My reaction is too severe. About 10 years ago I ate a sandwich on a bun and threw up for 3 hours. They make so many GF products now, I don't miss much. I've even found GF pizza.
    2568 days ago
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