Wednesday, January 05, 2011
One year ago I made the decision to change my life. I've done that. Losing 75 pounds has made more of a difference than I expected. I look at myself differently. I no longer shy away from mirrors in dread. If I happen to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror I don't go into a self hate frenzy. I now love shopping for clothes. I can go into a store and be pretty certain that they will have my size. I've gone from a size 20W to a 10 petite (unless it's an 8 or a 12 depending on the manufacturer lol). People treat me differently. That's a great thing...except it's also not. I don't think it's right that people treat a thinner person better than a heavier person. It's not all to the good however. A woman at work who is significantly overweight now treats me as if i don't exist. We used to be very friendly. I smile and say good morning or try to start a conversation and she barely looks at me or speaks. I understand, but it's still not so good.
Also, I feel great in so many ways. I feel energized a lot
I jog up the stairs instead of plodding up, hanging onto the bannister. I eat a lot less, and even though I have not consciously cut out any particular food, I have found that I just don't like or even can't stand some things like most fried foods anymore (too heavy and greasy, uck!). I move with confidence and even, sometimes, grace. I still have to remind myself to stand straight and pull my shoulders back, but I'm working on that.
I'm 41 and in better shape than I was in my 20's. I think back to how much I have hated myself in the last decade and I am so grateful to have achieved this.
All in all, a productive an excellent year. I am proud and so pleased. Big thanks to Sparkpeople ( I tell everyone who asks me how I did it about Spark) and all my Spark friends. And thank you DH for all the support and love, Je t'aime, mon amour.
Happy New Year