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Anxious and excited

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

For some reason those two emotions almost always arrive in my heart and gut together. Tomorrow we are driving with some friends to get together with 8 college friends. When I was in college, I didn't have any weight issues, but I certainly had other issues.... such as a non-stop mouth and a desire to please everyone. When I get together with the people from that time in my life, those habits I worked so hard in therapy to understand and change sometimes come roaring back to the surface.... that's the anxiety. The excitement is that one of the group was my roommate for two years and part of a group of 8 of us that roomed together all four years in a variety of configurations. One couple who live here in town were not close friends at college, but have become very dear friends in the past 35 years as we went through child birth and rearing, loss of parents and many holidays spent together. I just need to relax, remember that everyone isn't fascinated by what I am doing and I don't have to prove I exist in a meaningful way by loudly proclaiming my activities and successes. I can sit back and enjoy the warmth of friendship, of shared experiences and just be in the moment.
I'll post tomorrow or the next day to let you know how things went.
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    I hope you enjoyed your visit. Dear friends are just that- friends!
    2603 days ago
    Well, those measly 7 pounds you gained over the holidays aren't going to even be noticed on your lovely figure. I'd wager your one of the youngest, healthiest, most attractive looking of the group. But this is not a beauty contest, a or any kind of contest at all. It's hard not to do, but you shouldn't compare yourself to your peers regarding anything. Your only purpose in life is to be happy, to love, and to be loved. No more, no less and, as you keep reminding us, it can always be found in the moment.
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    2604 days ago
    It seems akin to the way so many of us revert to behaving around our parents the way we did as children. In going back to a time and place, whether in reality or in mind and emotion, we fulfill the role and expectations that existed when that time and place were our real, daily lives. We may not recognize it in our own behavior, but other people--friends, spouses--sure do, as we see it in them: Who is the six-foot 10-year old? I don't even know if I'm making sense.

    You have the right idea for facing the situation, but don't bend so far back that you're not yourself as you are today.
    2604 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/4/2011 1:07:13 AM
    Don't Worry - Enjoy your time with them - "What will be, will be!"

    2604 days ago
    I am sure you will have a wonderful time, enjoy!!
    2604 days ago
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