Monday, January 03, 2011
After visiting my dad this last week, I reached that point in life of where you realize that no matter what the past was, there are some things that can reach to the depths of your heart like no other. For me it was seeing my dad cry several times. This is a man who I can't really remember see cry. When we took him to see his wife in the dementia center and saw them look each other in the eye and just start crying, it broke me. No matter how strong you are, there are times when tears need to come and love at its best needs expressed. She thought he was coming to get her out. He couldnt tell her it wasnt. They have been each others support for so many years. Now that time is ending as we make tough decisons in their care and what is best for each of them in their last years. Time can sting, but it also can be so beautiful. This one moment in time was as painful as it was beautiful. I wonder how much we all forget to just love each other on a daily basis because of all the small stuff we make excuses for. Our weight is one of those. We always have an excuse to just eat. What is our excuse to just love unconditionally? To just embrace a moment for its good? To see the positive in light of a bad situation? If we could just work on our mind sets with that simple love for each other and for ourself, would we have all these excuses or could we just enjoy our beauty, honor our bodies, and honor the time we are given. All these thoughts are ringing in my heart, just because I saw my daddy cry once to many.