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Monday, January 03, 2011
The whole of 2010 has been a crazy year for me. I’ve been okay, in general, but a few people close to me have had a really terrible year, and that impacted me at work. In March I had my first arthritis flare-up (NOW I know what everyone’s talking about) and that put an end to the regular exercise and weightlifting I was doing. I wasn’t able to do anything physical until June, when I did some very gentle swimming (at least it was something). The fall semester was just crazy and I didn’t exercise at all.
Food-wise I was on track nearly the whole year, which is a huge achievement for me. If I ate too much I made it up over the next few days. I made generally good choices when faced with food decisions. I cooked healthy meals. I made it through Thanksgiving with only a 2 pound gain.
But then came last week. Visited my family and things were stressful, and compounded by the blizzard, which trapped us all together for 2 days. By the second day I was eating out of control, and also having an ‘out of body’ feeling as I observed what I was doing. I knew better, of course, could recognize all the signs, could have eaten other things (or nothing – I was eating at least twice as many calories as usual), but gave in to those old feelings of helplessness.
Got home last Thursday, bringing the last of the Xmas cookies with me, and proceeded to eat them Friday and Saturday. Yesterday shared all this emotion with DH (he hadn’t come with me to see family, which added to my stress – not because of him, he had to work, but because I didn’t have him to talk to), and together we dumped the last of the cookies (there were still a lot) into the trash and washed all the tins.
Gained 5 pounds in a week, and that leaves me 5 pounds over my goal weight.
Did a SP weigh in yesterday and realized I hadn’t posted my weight in 18 months! Since then I’ve gained 8.6 pounds. This slippery slope (okay, this dramatic plunge over the cliff) will end NOW.
I can’t fix the problems I see in my family – that is out of my control. I can control what I eat and how much I exercise, and that’s where my energy will go.