Sunday, January 02, 2011
Journalising and Blogging. What is the difference? For me? I am much more honest in my journaling because no one but me reads it. I can be a little honest while blogging.. It has been a sucky year..no weight lost except the same 5 I lost over and over and over again. Which means I also gained the same 5 over and over. I need to lose 40 and my sweet daughter wants to lose 30. Today she called out to me and I couldn't give her any words of motivation because I struggle with the same thing. Have for years. I love to eat food and I hate to exercise. How does one change that way of thinking?
And why to I measure myself by this standard of "how much I weigh" and Exercise? Why does that rule how I feel about my self. Understandably I don't like the way I feel or look. But I think that I am not "that" bad.
So wish I could feel better about wanting to exercise or get the desire some how to want to exercise. I need motivation. I need to be able to help my daughter. I need to feel good about ME again. I am sick of taking care of everyone else's problems and not focusing on my family and children.
Things are about to change in this household. Let's hope and pray it is for good.