Well it's finally 2011 and I was away for two full days. Well a new year is starting and I'm getting ready for my surgery. I really hope I get a surgery date soon since it's hard to get ready and prep when the date gets delayed and delayed. I need to prepare mentally...
I'm trying to focus on other things and keep a smile on my face. But my stomach turns once in a while when I feel the now common feeling of fear the thought of lower back surgery brings...


Well a new year is starting and along with the fear is the feeling of hope. Hope to get better. Hope to live without pain. Hope to be active once again. Hope to be able to be myself.

I wish that 2011 brings everyone wonderful things; love, health, self-confidence and happiness!!