It's 1am on the second day of the New Year, it seems I'm never quite on time. On time that is for the obligatory New Years Hopes/Dreams/Goals/Resolution journal entry.
First lets recap the last year....
2010 was an interesting year.
I lost 45 pounds
I turned 26 and learned a little about life along the way
Enrolled in classes
Quit a seemingly toxic job
Got a new job
Traveled a little
I went skydiving!!
Didn't do so well in said classes
Miss said toxic job
Bad relationship stuff
I went a little crazy
I won't lie, the last few months of 2010 were some of the most trying months of my life. I am in the middle of what seems like a life crisis/nervous breakdown. I feel like I don't know who I am or where I'm going. I feel like I'm in a million pieces and I'm not sure how to pull myself together. In this crazy time I did visit New York, Massachusettes, and New Jersey. In that time I also quit going to my classes pretty much. I'm back in Indiana now trying to figure out where to go from here. I haven't worked in the last month or so(though I do, thankfully, still have a job). I'm scared because I feel so disconnected.
I'm hoping this new year is one of growth and change.
I AM starting 2011 at 195!! I haven't seen a number like that since I started the 6th grade. I just turned 26, so that was a while ago. I'm absolutely tickled =]
I also know that I can't hold myself accountable to long term goals, atleast not strict ones. I don't have the attention span for it. So I'm going to start the new year with short term goals =]
1.Log into spark every day
I set Spark as my homepage giving me no reason not to log on and stay accountable. It will also remind me to drink my water, and hooray for spinning the wheel!
2.30mins on the elliptical atleast 5 days a week
Having this goal keeps me on track for my yearly goal. I have to burn 2019 calories a week to lose 50 pounds this year. I want to lose 50 pounds this year to get into a healthy BMI range.
3.Journal on Spark atleast once a week
Keeping a journal is good for the soul and will help keep me accountable,
4.Get my house cleaned and the fridge stocked
My house is a disorganized mess. It happens with boys for roommates and house guests almost every weekend. Shopping is also difficult because I don't drive and sometimes it's hard to get to the store. Due to the last few months, my pantry and fridge are completely bare. Since I have work and school, I'm giving myself the whole month to get my stuff together.
Every day is a another step in a month that's 1/12 of an entire year. Plenty of time to get things done.
I heard a good quote the other day that said "Don't spend too much of today on yesterday". I'm one of those people that worries about everything thats already happened(and what will happen but that's another discussion). I need to break that bad habit so that I can be more focused on the things that actually matter.
Alright 2011, I'm ready. Be easy though because right now, I'm incredibly fragile and a complete mess. Help me become the person I know that I can be.
Heres to a magnificent year in the making.
I found this in an old entry and it makes for good comparison!
December 4th 2009: 240 (-10) BMI 41.3 (-2.9)
December 11th 2009: 233 (-7) BMI 40.1 (-1.2)
December 18th 2009: 231 (-2) BMI 39.7 (-.4) 9.7 more points until I'm out of the obese range!
December 25th 2009: 226 (-5) BMI 38.9 (- .8)
January 1st 2010: 228 (+2) BMI 39.2 (+ .3)
January 2nd 2011: 195 (-33) BMI 33.5 (-5.7)
I also said that I would be happy even if I lost 50 pounds. Well, in all reality, I gained weight after January and through the year I've lost 45. I'm happy with that and I'm so happy to be closer to a healthy bmi and weight for my height.