Saturday, January 01, 2011
So I changed my introduction on my page today to this:
I am doing this so that I can be here for my two gorgeous boys!
My kids are my life, and I want to live to be with them! Everything I do is with their best interests at heart! So, I want to be here and I need to be healthy in order to do that!
After losing 49 pounds between October 2006 and November 2007 and being my smallest in years, I have officially gained back every thing I lost and then some! I am so very disappointed with myself and those who looked up to me when I had great weight-loss.
Today is 1/1/11 and this is the year for permanent change! I have to change my starting weight to be realistic. I'm more than the 188 I had on here now with all my weight gain. It's a big slap in the face and I'm ready to do this!
I even changed my ticker to the mountain and the icon to the person running. These symbolize the mountain I have to climb to reach my goal not only of weight-loss but in life.
To quote Miley Cyrus "There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna want to make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle. Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waiting on the other side. It's the climb."
I know it may be a little tacky but it sure is a song that makes me cry every time. Life is hard but so long as we keep trying, we are climbing!
I love you all!"
This change was more for me than for those who read my page. Life has been super difficult this past year but today is not only a new day but a new year and once more chance to get it right. So long as I keep going and never quit, I know I am ok.
I love all the friends and family I have. Those I have met and those online who I have never met in person. I wish all of you the most prosperous, healthy, and happy year of all. I know we can do it! The fact that we are all still here, even if only every once in a while, is proof that we have not given up and that anything is possible. I have been working on my journey for 4 years now and although I am starting again heavier than the first time, I know that I can never get "comfortable" and never forget that every piece of food I put in my mouth is a conscious decision. "Will this help or hurt my efforts?" If it hurts them, then it doesn't go in my mouth. Special occasions are not about the food, they are about the ones you are sharing it with. Remember that (talking to myself) and things will be good!
Vow to get in some sort of exercise every day. It doesn't matter if it's heavy cleaning, walking up and down the stairs or "real" exercise. I MUST be able to say that I did SOMETHING every day! If not, it was a wasted day. Exercise clears the mind and I need that more than anything!
I love you all and I truly hope you have a great year! Most of all I have to love me and GIVE myself the best year ever! I deserve it too!