sometimes we have to look back to be able tolook forward.so i decided to look back on this last year so i go go forward into the next year with hope and a head held high and the knowledge that next year can be a better and stronger year for both me and my family if i am prepared to work at making it that way.as usual it was a very terbulant and traumatic year but that being said it is the things that we have to face and how we deal with it that makes who we are.what we have to ask is who we are who we want to be and if not what can we do to change it?this year i will do a short list of the main things that happen,they might not be in the order they happened it is survice to say that they happened.
#my husband lost his job
#my father in law got diagnosed with prostate cancer had an op,cancer has now spread to the bones and the dr says is terminal they can only give him medicine to relieve his pain.it is just a cause of wait and see when and where.
#zakariya had to change from main stream school to a special school(have again another fight on my hands as they now want him in a hpt school.
#we nearly lost zakariya once this year due to his illness´s
#we nearly lost ayman twice.
#i had a big op in august which turned in to an even bigger op,had to be resusitataed as well as have blood transfusions.because the op was longer than 11 hours in the end i also developed lung embolies(which if any of you have had blood clots will know are very,very painful,that sometimes i find it hard to breath.)
#also torn a ligament on my foot as well as torn the minicus on me knee.need op but they want to wait until the lung embolies have gone(can take up to a year )
#became a team leader of the fitgirls(thankyou fitgirls for putting up with me)
#lost a total of 44.5lbs
so as you see though it was a very traumatic time it was not all bad.
#i am still here
#zakariya is still here
#ayman is still here
#we still have a roof over our heads
#even though i still emotionally eat(as proof with my yoyoing weight this year)i am able to stop it earlier than i used to ,i am able to put it quicker behind me and a couple of times i have been able to stop it before it started and didn´t emotional eat when in the past i would have.
#i have made even more spark friends
#have been givem more support than ever expected from them(would also like to think they feel the same way as i do about them and that i have supported them also when needed)
#i am also in a lot happier and hopeful frame of mind than the old me would have been
#i am also another year older and wiser.at least i feel wider.
LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEW YEAR:
#i am looking forward to the new year to be an even lesser emotional eater than before(hope that makes sense)
#hoping to get to my goal weight(hoped this last year but with all that was going on was an unrealistic expectation.)as i am 44.5lbs nearer this year i hope that i can do this.
#feel fitter and healthy
#help make my kids feel healthier and fitter(we have brought a wii to help with that)
#being hopeful and looking for the opurtunities that are there instead of waiting for them to find me.
GUESS THAT IS ABOUT IT:
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND A GREAT BIG THANK YOU TO ALL MY SPARK FRIENDS FOR BEING THERE WHEN I NEEDED YOU ;NOW AND IN THE FUTURE AS I KNOW YOU WILL STILL BE THETRE FOR ME: