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looking back to look forwards.

Friday, December 31, 2010

sometimes we have to look back to be able tolook forward.so i decided to look back on this last year so i go go forward into the next year with hope and a head held high and the knowledge that next year can be a better and stronger year for both me and my family if i am prepared to work at making it that way.as usual it was a very terbulant and traumatic year but that being said it is the things that we have to face and how we deal with it that makes who we are.what we have to ask is who we are who we want to be and if not what can we do to change it?this year i will do a short list of the main things that happen,they might not be in the order they happened it is survice to say that they happened.

#my husband lost his job

#my father in law got diagnosed with prostate cancer had an op,cancer has now spread to the bones and the dr says is terminal they can only give him medicine to relieve his pain.it is just a cause of wait and see when and where.

#zakariya had to change from main stream school to a special school(have again another fight on my hands as they now want him in a hpt school.

#we nearly lost zakariya once this year due to his illness´s

#we nearly lost ayman twice.

#i had a big op in august which turned in to an even bigger op,had to be resusitataed as well as have blood transfusions.because the op was longer than 11 hours in the end i also developed lung embolies(which if any of you have had blood clots will know are very,very painful,that sometimes i find it hard to breath.)

#also torn a ligament on my foot as well as torn the minicus on me knee.need op but they want to wait until the lung embolies have gone(can take up to a year )

#became a team leader of the fitgirls(thankyou fitgirls for putting up with me)

#lost a total of 44.5lbs

so as you see though it was a very traumatic time it was not all bad.
#i am still here

#zakariya is still here

#ayman is still here

#we still have a roof over our heads

#even though i still emotionally eat(as proof with my yoyoing weight this year)i am able to stop it earlier than i used to ,i am able to put it quicker behind me and a couple of times i have been able to stop it before it started and didn´t emotional eat when in the past i would have.

#i have made even more spark friends

#have been givem more support than ever expected from them(would also like to think they feel the same way as i do about them and that i have supported them also when needed)

#i am also in a lot happier and hopeful frame of mind than the old me would have been

#i am also another year older and wiser.at least i feel wider.


#i am looking forward to the new year to be an even lesser emotional eater than before(hope that makes sense)

#hoping to get to my goal weight(hoped this last year but with all that was going on was an unrealistic expectation.)as i am 44.5lbs nearer this year i hope that i can do this.

#feel fitter and healthy

#help make my kids feel healthier and fitter(we have brought a wii to help with that)

#being hopeful and looking for the opurtunities that are there instead of waiting for them to find me.



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    Actually considering last years problems - you ended up on a positive note!!
    It is important to stay positive in order to succeed!!
    2569 days ago
    I guess you have a lot to be thankful for.
    It sounds like you had a scary year, last year.
    Hopefully things will get better.
    2575 days ago
  • JEM0622
    I am very sorry to hear about your father in law's health and the loss of your husband's job. Grateful that you and the boys are hanging in.

    2578 days ago
  • B-N-ME
    Karen, I can honestly say I don't know if I have met a person who is more supportive and positive than you!
    I didn't know about the struggles occuring in your life early in 2010 because you just deal with things, and look on the bright side.
    It is my hope and prayer that 2011 is the year that your family find health, peace and much happiness.
    2579 days ago
    Karen, I love how you always have a wonderful way of looking at the positives! I wish you the best year ever in 2011! emoticon
    2579 days ago
    You were able to overcome alot last year. I am sure that this year will be your year to reap your reward of all the hard things that you had to go through last year. Have a wonderful 2011!!
    2579 days ago
    Hi Karen Love,
    Just think have much you have acheived ... you are such a strong, beautiful, and brave lassie
    I am so proud to be one of your friends ...
    You have come a long way and I know you will still keep fighting to protect your family and to keep yourself as well as you can for them .
    Just remember I am always here for you both in Sparks and Personally .
    Much love to you all .. I wish you all a very HAPPYand HEALTHY NEW YEAR
    love and Hugs Susie
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    2580 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/31/2010 5:25:17 PM
    You have overcome so much Karen! Happy New Year and much success on all your goals!
    2580 days ago
  • DOAA06
    May Allah give you the strength to carry on, and the reward for your patience and hard work! May your coming year be filled with joy, and blessings AMEEN emoticon
    2580 days ago
    Happy and Hopeful that's a great place to start 2011.
    "What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger." You must be the strongest woman alive!!
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    2580 days ago
  • JUDITH1654
    Everything you've gone through would have broken a lesser/weaker person. Kudos to you for not just all you've gone through but how you survived the purifying fire. You have truly come out a rare gem. emoticon
    2580 days ago
  • SCRAP317
    Great reflection Karen! We should all look back occasionally to appreciate what we have survived and what we have to look forward to in the future!

    Many blessings for the new year! Chris emoticon
    2580 days ago
    WOW! You go, Karen! That is wonderful - keep up the great attitude!

    Here's looking to the New Year and all the wonderful possibilities it holds!

    Hugs! Beverly
    2580 days ago
    Hey Karen,

    What a year you've had! It certainly sounds pretty challenging but your attitude is great and you've done so well. You may not have met goal but 44 lbs lost is AWESOME!!

    Also your so positive and encouraging with the Fit Girls - it's my favourite team as I definitley feel it's genuine and supportive and so much of that is down to you.

    I wish you all the best for 2011, for health and happiness for you and all your family and for a great SPARK year!

    2580 days ago
    Thank You for sharing! So glad you was able to see the good of the year, and make it important, to you!

    I pray for all to continue to get better for you and yours and for success, for your journey here and for good health to be yours!

    2580 days ago
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