Tuesday, December 28, 2010
DAY ONE A HUGE SUCCESS. HOORAY FOR ME. I AM THANKFULL.
Stayed on track with cals, clean veg and fruit and protein and did the workout.
I did have moments and thoughts of sweet desserts that i knew mom had in her house. I wanted some i wanted to just eat the pumpkin pie and poppy seed cake but i did not do it. Thank You God.
Yesterday was my first clean day in probably abou 3 weeks and in those 3 weeks i really went to town on especialy the desserts, chocolate, baileys.
I hiked up to 167 pounds thats what the scale was at yesterday morning and i have not been at such a high number all year. Reality check and i needed it.
Lets see what today brings i feel motivated and centered right now. Ready to have another hugely successfull day.
This ended up to being a pretty tough day mentaly, emotionaly and phsicaly.
I felt depressed i felt shaky physicaly and wanted to binge on baking that mom has at her house it crossed my mind all day.
I really think that i am having phsical symptoms of withdrawl from sweets also mental withdrawl.
I did get through the day and ended up sleeping often on and off through out the day i slept a lot. Good thing it really helped to stay on track.
I must remind myself constantly this is temporary i will not continue to feel this way in the long term my body will adjust and get used to the fruit and veg and so will my mind and i will get my energy and enthusiasim back as time goes on and my body will also get used to the lower cals.
This is about long term solution and long term living and it will become permanant the more days i practice the better i will become just like with anything we do in life practice makes great.
So when the days get tough and the hours long or my impatients gets in the way just remember it will pass and in the long term you will be much happier even if you are not so happy in the here and now.