Yes, it's vain. But, I'd love to lose weight so that I could fit into cute clothes that make me look sexy. It's been a long time since I felt sexy and I need that feeling back. I want to feel confident rather than self conscious. I want to look in the mirror and think, "Wow, I look damn good." I know that happiness comes from within and I should be able to look at myself and love myself for who I am and I do to a certain extent. It's just that when I look in the mirror, I can't but feel a bit depressed too. It's time for a new me.