Monday, December 27, 2010
Not sure what happened, but all my resolve just disappeared, I had to have gained at least 5 lbs. over the weekend but I'm too afraid to get on the scale! It would have been fine but two things contributed to my lack of willpower - I baked cookies and it was a long weekend! I had a 1/2 day on Thursday so I came home and I was a little bored and for some reason its not Christmas unless I bake something. So I set out and made a couple of batches of cookies. The problem was they had no place to go, I couldn't bring them to work and I wasn't going anywhere for the holidays so home they sat. I started eating them and I have to tell you they tasted awesome. I haven't eaten cookies in such a long time and it was like a crazy person was loose. I didn't have one or two at a time, I'm talking three, four, five. And the funny thing is I'm not a big cookie person. The whole weekend was like that. And now here I sit, feeling like a big blob, mad at myself for letting myself go like that! I'm not beating myself up about it but I am a little disappointed I haven't made the changes in myself that would have stopped something like that from happening!
Anyways, here I sit at work today, getting back on track, drinking my water and getting on my treadmill tonight. I know if I really want to make some headway in 2011 I have to get more serious about this and not be so relaxed on my eating. I think sometimes I give myself too much freedom to not make anything off limits. I know what I have done wrong and I know what I need to do If I want to make progress. That is one of my goals for 2011, to concentrate on what and how much I eat and to exercise enough. 2010 was not a failure though, it brought some weightloss and changes that I've never been able to make so I can look back and be proud of what I did accomplish. I can see I wasn't the only one over the holidays who went crazy with the cookies so I guess we can only be human sometimes! 2011 we can and will continue to have successes!