Monday, December 27, 2010
I have recently realize how my weight loss, and my weight in general, is tied to my emotions and how I deal with certain situations. For example. My husband and I get in a fight and argue about things every now and then right. What married couple doesn't argue or fight every now and then? Right? Anyway, whenever that used to happen I would always be the one to break down into tears and just cry until a migraine set in. I hated it! So annoying! Migraines suck and I never got anywhere by doing that. I always made myself victim. I don't know why really. I guess I felt weak and not able to handle things the way they should be handled? Well, recently my husband and I argued over something and I stayed strong. I don't know what happened really or how it happened. I didn't realize until MUCH later that I have NOT cried my eyes out over our arguments (fights lol) ever since I started losing weight. Weird? I don't know. Coincidence? I don't know what is going on really. I guess I've just realized that I'm much stronger than I used to be. Not really physically but mentally and emotionally. I AM strong and I am BETTER than the person who used to cry over spilled milk. No more crying for this chick! I'll keep my head up high and know that I'm better than that! I'm proud of myself. I can now admit when I'm being unreasonable and it doesn't hurt me to say it either. I don't care. I won't make myself look stupid anymore :-) I'm a strong woman!
It's weird how weight is somehow tied to your emotions. Ever since I started my weight loss journey my life has been changing slowly. It's good that it's changing slowly though. I think it is best for my family to get used to the new me...slowly. :-)
So yeah, that's it for today. I've been eating junk lately but I think I'll be OK weight wise. I've just been enjoying the good food and wine ;-) No biggie. I keep telling myself that a one to two pound weight gain will NOT change the way I look or feel about myself. I WILL get back on track as soon as the year is over and all the cookies are out of the house ;) I seriously need to find a way to make healthy cookies. I'll have to experiment with different recipes!