Thursday, December 23, 2010
Ok I for one am behind the eightball this year:
1. I hate shopping
2. We had 2 blizzards on 2 consecutive Saturdays in December
3. Last weekend I was out of state at a wedding
Let me just say, I don't mind being out the day before or even Christmas Eve for the most part, I have my list, I have my plan, I'm ready. I know I have no one to really blame for not having all my stuff done, it's all me; I try not to get frustrated, or stressed, just get in and get out.
What usually puts me off when I am out and about are the folks that are shopping angry. Maybe they have to shop for people they don't like or their spouse didn't get the right kind of napkins or they work all day and still have to clean the house, get the groceries and finish the gift shopping (what's the membership fee to that club); I don't know why they are mad but they are and they just want to drag us all down with them.
This is my example and it really kind of wrecked my evening Tuesday:
I'm tired too, the mall is overwhelming to me, I just spent $40 at the bath and body and I don't really know why so I pop into Target (legos for the nephew, easy) and promptly get a call from a friend doing the holiday catch up and well wishing so we are chatting, I am one to be aware of my surroundings and I do my business and am making my way to the door avoiding walking into the people in front of me who are coming in and out and this woman behind me bumps into me and I simply say "sorry" and try to step out of her way because she must be in a hurry she crabs at me "get off the phone!" What? (as most of us know in traffic 101 when hit from behind the fault is 99% on the car in back) So in less than a shining moment for me I turn to her and crab back "get over yourself!" .
Now I feel mad at this lady for bing a jerk and mad at myself for being just as big of a jerk and I feel bad because I shouldn't be that way ever let alone at Christmas and worse because I didn't feel I did anything to evoke this woman's anger (she ran into me) and even worse because I didn't take the high road and still mad that this woman was so rude!
So tonight as I am returning the $40 worth of bath and body stuff (I think they totally suckered me in with a sale!), finish off my list and figuring out what I need from the grocery to have on hand if we do have people over or go to people's homes before Sunday (when my family is gathering), I will try to keep in mind that the only thing that should be in my heart or come out of my mouth is "Merry Christmas".