I know I should be happy and festive, but
Thursday, December 23, 2010
doing so while living with scrooges is NOT easy. My step-son is downstairs right now playing his guitar. He chose to not go Christmas shopping with his dad - he has plans to help out friends this afternoon with moving. Yes, he has plans. Are they selfish...? I know I think they are, but I'm sure he sees it differently.
As the kids get older, they seem to care less and less about holiday cheer and more about how expensive their presents will be. New top-of-the-line knives for one (Seeing as ONE of these knives can cost about $250-$300 dollars, I think not). Very fancy new guitar for the other (costing around $1400-$2000). Really?? We already pay the mortgage, utilities, their school fees and clothes, and more!
Am I just feeling broke? Honestly, not really. Working with teenagers every day of the week shows me how some just don't seem to give a fig about others older than them.
Am I just taking my frustration with my students out on our two kids? I hate to admit it, but I'm sure that's part of it.
What I really want are some holiday Good Vibes right now. My husband is an amazing man that hates to do anything decorative for the holidays. So I choose to decorate as much as I can - happy to have help from him while I do this. Right now he's out doing some Christmas shopping - he says he's going to get supplies to make cookies to decorate. That'll be a blast! So I see I've got them. I've got the Good Vibes around me, I just need to focus on that and not take teenager angst personally.
I'm sure I was just as bad if not more so when I was a teenager. And lookie, I survived.