Wednesday, December 22, 2010
With so many 'Jan. 1s' behind me, what is going to make this one different? How will this not become just one more sputtered rocket off the launch pad, hovering for a few seconds before plummeting back to earth?
It won't be. And it will be. I think that firsts are good times to get a sense of renewal, but I need to rid myself of the idea that I'm "starting over." All of this is just one serial journey--there are no mulligans, do overs, or going back. It's all going forward, learning from past mistakes, repeating some past mistakes, etc. And that's okay. I will not suddenly wake up Jan. 1 and be all 'fixed'. I will stray from whatever my plans are, because my plans are at some level unreasonable for my lifestyle. But, it doesn't mean I shouldn't have those plans, or try to stick to them within the limitations that will be there.
What has been changing lately, and what I plan to take into the new year, is my relationship with exercise. 2010 has been a good year for starting to get back in touch with my inner athlete. Even though I'm not weighing less (if anything, I'm 3-4 pounds heavier than when I started the year), I am exercising a whole lot more strenuously and often. No more kidding myself that walking is enough. It's not. I am a very efficient walker, which means it burns few calories for me unless I sustain it for hours at a time. I rarely have hours at a time to go for a walk.
My new year's anti-resolutions:
* I will not stop drinking, because I enjoy cocktails and wine, and the social time they bring.
* I will not refrain from celebrations--birthdays, anniversaries, and the like. I will have a smidge of cake or a bite of pie when the time warrants.
* I will eat in restaurants as often as I want and can afford, because they are a true artform in this place I live, and are a huge source of pleasure.
And the resolutions:
* I will exercise often and hard.
* I will enjoy the sunshine as much as is possible.
* I will eat lots of healthy fruit and veg.
* I will sleep more.
* I will read more.
* I will play computer games less (in progress--I've cut down substantially)
* I will enjoy my time with friends and relatives (see anti-resolutions)
* I will work hard and enjoy it.
* I will always give precedence to travel over things, experiences over purchases.
* I will be generous in spirit to everyone around me.
And, I will remember that 2011 will be a great year. Happy New Year!