Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I just started my vacation at 4 pm today (quitting time from Her Majesty's salt mines aka the tba employer) , yet already I am conflicted. I dont know if its just me but I seem to have a lot of mixed up emotions from this time of year. I know from being a kid I still have A LOT of baggage from family fights, dissapointments ,etc from this time of the year. And I know, inspite of my best efforts ( and time attending a 12 step program etc ) , that I still have a lot of demons in the closet. I also seem to have a lot of guilt for seemingly becoming the ONE THING I used to dispise when I attended Mass every weekend (a "C and E" er) !! Well I suppose my Savior will hopefully accept me as a I am- a broken human being ( who never said he was perfect).
Merry CHRISTmas !