Tuesday, December 21, 2010
I know this is a bad time to be setting a goal, but you gotta start somewhere, right? I decided to try and lose 6 pounds by the 11th of January. That's 3 weeks from now. 6 pounds can't be that hard, right?
Yesterday I felt super out-of-shape. I took the stairs at work (going down) and felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest the entire ride home. I decided to go wedding dress shopping, finally, in January. I'm terrified. But maybe it will open my eyes and give me the kick in th ass that I need. At least it will show me if the image in my head is real or just a figment of my imagination. Who knows, maybe I will think I look stunning. (I doubt it, lol) I think it will turn out to be a positive experience. Whatever I end up losing will only make me look that much better. I may not be a size 8 on my wedding day, but a 12 will still look great. Even a 14.
Oh, yeah, get this. My fiance had his work Christmas party at a bar we used to go to a lot. This guy came up to me that I haven't seen in a while (older guy, super sweet) and puts his hand on my waist. He says, "You look great!" and follows it up with, "April?" I said, "April?" (thinking, my name is Michelle, not April....) well.....he meant am I DUE in April!!!!! Mind you, I'm holding a Miller lite! I just laughed it off, he said he felt so embarrassed, but I told him it was ok. The thing is, I thought I actually looked good. I had a new sweater dress on with some body shaping garments on underneath. I felt cute. I didn't really let the comment bother me, but I was definitely self-concious the rest of the night. I kept pulling my dress away from my tummy. I didn't let it ruin my night, but it was in the back of my mind. Oh well, what can you do.
So, I'm going to be as good as I can the next 3 weeks. This is the week of food deliveries at work and people bringing in various things like candy, cookies, cakes....it's hard to say no, but I have to do it. I can't ban myself entirely, but I'm not going to pig out. I have to work Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the day after, so that really sucks. But at least I won't be at someone's house all day where food will be available at all times. I have to admit, I'm not very optimistic about this. but I can't give up. I have to do something. Even if it's a little tiny something.