Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Yes, the year isnít over yet. But I donít get much time to be on here anymore. Actually, itís not that I get much time, itís trying to squeeze a few minutes in between working, baby thinking, and sleeping.
So, I have the time to do this now. Hereís my year in review.
This year I tried. This year I traveled. This year I saw. This year Iíve experienced.
Not all of it was good. Not all of it was bad. But none the less, 2010 has been an interesting year.
I started out pretty optimistic. I made a chart of my yearly goals. I put forth the effort to start the year off right. ButÖ as life will have it, Life got in the way. Now donít get me wrong. I really did try. The first part of the year.
I joined the YMCA. I went religiously. I went with my mom. I went with friends. I enjoyed going to the YMCA. My workouts were consistent. On top of that, I did videos. 30 Day ShredÖ. AhÖ I love it!
I mapped out in my head what I wanted to do this summer. I had trails and camping and hiking and outdoorsy stuff to do.
I had planned financial stability.
I had miles to go on my bike.
THEN- Life got in the way.
I love watching my niece play softball. So tournaments were the norm in the Spring time for us. Her team had the opportunity to go to the World Series this year. I, lucky ole me, had the chance to tag along.
But then, out of the blue, the biggest surprise of all time came- the little stick was positive, and the nurses were positive, and the doctors were positive- I was pregnant!
Two months of dealing with nausea, food cravings, exhaustion, I still managed to pack my stuff up and fly to Virginia! My first time flying! What an experience. I still prefer driving, but manÖ what an experience.
Virginia was hot, humid, but fun. But you remember that little pregnancy thing? Yeah, it prevented me from REALLY enjoying it. That and the blazing 100 degree weather. There were times that I was off and ready to go with the group, only to be sidelined with a serious case of morning sickness.
But once I relieved myself of that for the moment, off I went. Albeit by myself. Which in a way, I enjoyed more than maybe doing it in a group. I saw some things that none of the others saw (yeahÖ they saw things I didnít get to see too). But in my excursions, I hopped in a cab for the first time. Iíve never ridden in a cab before. Until Virginia! It was the trip of a life time for me. I even spent my 27th birthday down there!
So, back home, I generally stopped focusing on some things. Particularly Spark things. I was pushing and pushing and pushing myself in the beginning to stay focused and stay on track. Once home, once reality kicked in, the track was no longer my focus.
Fast forward- I am now 8 months pregnant. Am I enjoying it? Not in the slightest. I hate everything about pregnancy. I hate the symptoms, signs, pains, discomforts. I hate the questions, touching, and the attention. I hate the constant mind battle of wondering what will happen if. I hate everything about pregnancy.
But while Iíve been pregnant, a few things have come along. Some people have really surprised me at how open, caring, compassionate they are for our friendship/relationship. On the other hand, pregnancy can really bring out the true colors of some.
In the end, I only completed one goal- Pay off two loans/credit cards. I paid off 4.
In the end, I havenít lost 70 more pounds. Instead, I gained about 14 (at least, according to the doctors scale). But I gained a few more ďlife points.Ē
I didnít do a class workout. But man was sitting under that Virginia sun a workout in and of itself!
I didnít ride my bike 50 miles. Instead, I flew 3,000.
I didnít get to do my summer of backpacking, camping, and trails, viewing the world from the mountains. Instead I viewed the world as an expecting mother, looking for the best for the future.
So as I look back, no, I didnít complete my goals for this year. But the great thing about life- sometimes life has its own goals for you, and sometimes, you just have to bend.
This coming year, Iím making one goal- to survive! Ha!