Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Iíve always had this little nagging question in the back of my mindÖwould I track my weight after a gain? There was a part of me that didnít want to admit that Iíd gone off track and so I thought that if I kept my little weight ticker in the same place, it would serve as motivation to get back to that number.
This morning I had my first weight gain since September. Iíve been complaining for weeks that I havenít been really motivated and Iíd stopped tracking my food because I just didnít feel like being bothered. Well now Iíve gained. Blessing in disguise? All I know is that when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw that Iíd gained weight, I suddenly felt very motivated to get back on track. Thereís nothing like a weight gain to remind you that youíre still learning and the weight can come right back!
Iím really proud of myself for not feeling defeated and taking this weight gain in stride. Iím proud that I tracked my gain and owned up to it. Iím proud that Iím motivated to keep moving forward and that thereís not even a tiny part of me that wants to give up.
I know where I went wrong during the last couple of weeks. Maybe Iíd gotten complacent believing that Iíd managed to break years of bad habits in just a couple of months. I know that I was drinking way too much wine at the holiday parties Iíve been to and that I didnít approach them with a set plan of attack. I know that I slacked off on tracking my food for the last couple of weeks and I know that I only exercised one day last week.
Knowing that Iím going to have to be mindful of what I eat for the rest of my life is a hard pill to swallow but Iím committed to being mindful. I know what the alternative is and I donít care to go back to living that way again. Iíve felt in control of my body for the first time in a very long time.
I can do this.