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Slow Down

Monday, December 20, 2010

So I'm definitely NOT on vacation any more. The jet lag has faded, the memories are growing distant, and WORK will not let up long enough to let me breathe let alone get anything accomplished before Christmas. I MISS Spark, I miss reading articles and tracking throughout the day, and updating my status and wishing the Done Girls Happy Birthdays. I'm afraid that my time away from this community has become a little permanent and since I got in the habit of NOT logging in every day while I was away, it's no longer as second nature as it was before I left. I need to make that better!

I've been on the scale a couple of times this week and it hasn't budged an inch since my fantastic post-trip weigh-in. No chance of shedding a little vacation water weight I guess. Like I said - I'm pretty sure the reason I dropped weight in the first place was because of that flu bug I got the day before I came home, so I shouldn't be surprised that my body has fluctuated back up this week, but it's disappointing! I was really hoping for that magic 75 pound weight loss by Christmas. But I really should be happy with 70. I should. So 70 pounds gone is what I'm taking home with me for Christmas. In a Size L sweater from the Gap.

Since getting home I have tried to resume my running routine, and since the pool is closed until the New Year, I have added back in my 3rd day of weekly running. But for whatever reason (most likely that I am fighting a really bad chest cold), I have been hitting a wall at 1.5 miles and just can't seem to run any further than that before having to walk. I'm on my 5K route, so I'm only run/walking 3.1 miles anyway, when before I left for my trip I was up to running a full 4 miles. So 3 times this week I've gone out, 3 times I've stopped running just past 1 mile, walk for 5 minutes, run again, hit another wall, walk, run - and so it goes for the full route. It's FRUSTRATING!!! Yes, I know the weather has been 9 degrees when I'm running outside. Yes, I know I'm fighting a cold. But I HAVE to break through this wall if I'm to keep training for my 8K in March.

I guess I am just realizing how important my cross-training with swimming and Zumba have been for my running as well. I'm feeling flabby all over. Running is great for my legs and my core, but Zumba had me toned nicely and swimming is amazing for my arms. I might be smaller than I was before my trip, but I don't FEEL smaller and that's really getting to me - especially since the compliments on my appearance have kicked in to high gear since coming back to town. You leave for 3 weeks and people forget what you looked like, and then coming back and clearly being smaller than the last mental picture they had of me has shocked a few people I think. My office mate actually exclaimed "OMG your face is so thin!" So that makes me feel good I guess, but guilty at the same time because I'm just not in "Top Shape" right now in comparison to where I was before I left.

I had a great photo session yesterday for a show I have coming up. The photographer is a friend of mine and he took some REALLY beautiful shots of me (I get a disk tomorrow so I'll be sure to post a couple). But again, it was yet another reminder that no matter how fabulous I feel about where I am right now, I still have a long way to go. The great shots are great and made me feel really pretty, but there were definitely a few outtakes that had me saying "Oh God - I look like THAT? Where'd THAT roll come from? And I thought my double chin was on the way out?" I have certainly come a long way since 313 pounds, but I'm not even half way yet. There is so much work left to do.

So I'm on autopilot through the holidays. I have come to the conclusion that if I can make it to New Year's Eve and still be down 70 pounds, that's a huge accomplishment and I should take that and be happy for it. But we all want MORE don't we? We all want to be super fabulous AND lose weight during really stressful holiday times. I think I'm perfectly normal to feel a little "blah" about the scale not moving when I'm rocking it out as hard as I can right now! And I haven't forgotten about my WW2 Challenge which I won't now see the end of until well into the new year.

I just don't want this Slow Down to become a trend. I fear trends like this. I was on a roll, and even though I didn't gain in Germany, I need to stay on that roll into the new year. I still have 125 pounds to lose! I need to hit that perfect balance of food and exercise again to see those results on the scale.

So tomorrow I'm aiming to run at least 2 miles without stopping. After Christmas I'll be back at Zumba every Saturday. And then back in the pool shortly after - on track to being down 100 pounds by April at the latest!

I just have to ride this frustration through the holidays, do the best I can with what I am given, run, run, run like a rockstar, and HOPE that everything I'm doing now will continue to work when the stress of the season wears off in January.

Wishing all of you as little stress as possible over this next week. We'll all make it through - good or bad - but I'm definitely looking forward to seeing less of all of you in the New Year! (In the best of all possible ways!)
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KELLIGIRL523 12/23/2010 10:01AM

    You just make me smile.

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WYND10 12/21/2010 11:44AM

    Ain't no shame in maintaining through the holidays! That's my plan. MAINTAIN. And hon, it certainly not a trend, if it were you wouldn't be worried about getting back to running more, Zumba and all that fun sweaty stuff! And seriously, getting down on yourself because you are ONLY running 1.5 miles. In the cold. With a chest cold. Umm...can someone say YOU'RE STILL A ROCKSTAR???? ;)

I want to be you when I grow up. Seriously.

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KRAWRS 12/21/2010 11:03AM

    I'm not worried! I know you're frustrated, but I SO ADMIRE YOU for all your hard work in Germany. Yes, you played just as hard as you worked, but you utilized that all important principal... that this is a LIFESTYLE CHANGE... so in Germany, you weren't on a diet. You watched what you ate when you could and did the best you could when there were no "good" choices. So now you're back and a little slow to get back in the routine... so take those little baby steps again to get you back where you were, and in no time, you'll be back where you started and then some!

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LOTUSFLOWER 12/21/2010 10:29AM

    You are beautiful.

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CHICAT63 12/21/2010 10:05AM

    2011 is going to bring on even more great things for you ! 70 pounds lost is 70 pounds, euh that is 7 x 10 pounds of potatoes that is frigging awesome. Do not get discouraged, you can do it.

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KARVY09 12/21/2010 7:26AM

    You're a rockstar. 2011 will be great for you!

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-POOKIE- 12/21/2010 1:48AM

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Sometimes when you look at the far off picture of losing so much... I know it made me feel daunted and put off. But you have already lost more than a lot of people ever do, which makes you an amazing success.

Don't beat yourself up for being ill either, I am feeling super guilty about not going out yesterday, but since I can't even walk around my flat without feeling ill... yet still feel guilt! Far cry from the girl who would happily do nothing for days.... and same for you, you are still running, just get well before taking it up a notch again.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 12/20/2010 10:33PM

    You're doing awesome. I certainly understand the frustration ... but being aware is part of the battle. Girl, you got this!

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SARAWALKS 12/20/2010 10:01PM

    Maintaining looks pretty good to me right now.
And you do need to be good to yourself so that you can get rid of the illness.
Wow, 8K! I'm impressed! I don't think there's any way you're going to backslide, so just get back in your tracking habit and welcome that NEW YEAR! emoticon

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LAURIETAIT 12/20/2010 9:40PM

    I hope to see less of you in the new year too! Don't sweat the slow downs. It will all come right in the end. Just keep doing all the things you have been doing and you will be down 125 in no time. Here's to us all surviving the season and maintaining the status quo. I really don't thing I'm capable of more.


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