Back to basics...
Monday, December 20, 2010
Goal for tomorrow
Water: 80 oz
Exercise: 120 total
Eat "freggies" with every meal
Make up Shane's "treats" for his Christmas party
The weekend was just one big food train wreck after another. I wasn't tracking. I wasn't exercising. I have no excuse. So I'm starting over again.
Having a horrible time with depression, and its getting harder for me to hide it and pretend it doesn't exist. I'm the worlds best at pretending I'm fine. I dont want to do that anymore.
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I will fully admit to NOT having scrubbed every floor tile - nice dream but not accomplished. Have been away for awhile - couldn't really face Christmnas and NY - I just hate that time of year - I know I should be all Santa is coming and Joy to the World but I just don't like the season.
So - here we both are - in 2011.
Come on back and lets get this thing happening together - I know you can do it - one step at a time.
I miss ya - get your ass back to Spark!
2234 days ago
You CAN do this. Believe it, Be it!
And listen, we all have rotten days, bad times. No problem -- remember, this is a marathon, not a sprint. We'll all get there!
You GO girl! Nikki
2243 days ago
Weekends are always hard for me too. I tend to always overdo it and end up hating myself (and the scale) on Monday. I find that if I take everything minute by minute and celebrate the small victories, I am more able to stay on track. Keeping up with your water helps too. It keeps you more full and less apt to snack.
I know where you are coming from with the depression... the winter is always hard to keep the morale high. Just remember, today is the shortest day of the year! So it will only get better! If you need anything, let me know!!
2251 days ago
And with you on the depression as well - it can be so hard to get yourself out of. Cardio always seems to be a way to get out of your head and push through the blues - for a short time anyways.
Weird how we are always expected to be fine - when people ask "how are you" or "Whats up" our immediate response is always - good, great, fine. The reaction if you tell the truth is usually an uncomfortable moment - I must admit I do like doing it someimtes ;)
Right - its still morning here so haven't started the tiles BUT it WILL be done.
The next 2 weeks are the hardest - with determination you will get through them - I know you can, I KNOW you can.
2252 days ago
I am sorry you have to deal with depression. It must be very hard. Fortunately for you, you seem to be pushing hard to keep it from controling you.
I hope you have forgotten about last weekend. It is long gone and the opportunities for you to make better choices are ahead of you. Love yourself even when you disappoint yourself with eating things you probably shouldn't. Every tiny step in the right direction is improvement.
Keep your goals in mind as you continue through the mine-field that this week is for people with eating isssues and you'll do great
2252 days ago
I have to agree with Barbara. You have good goals. We all mess up from time to time, but you just need to keep pushing forward. I messed up my goal today of eating one fruit & one veggie. I had some fruit, but no veggies (unless french fries count! lol). But tomorrow is another day and we will do the best we can! No one is perfect and even if they were, I don't think they would be much fun to be around! Keep reaching out to your Spark friends & hug your little boy. You deserve all the time & effort to be a healthy, happy woman!
2252 days ago
Hey there... I'm always around if you need someone to vent to... I've struggled with depression at times, sometimes it was really bad, other times it was just the blues...
If Esther is singing you those negative songs again you have got to tell her to shut up... You've got a beautiful family. You are a beautiful person, inside and out... Treat yourself good. You deserve it.
It looks like you have set some good goals up there. That's a good way to start rebuilding the confidence levels and boost that self esteem...
Be good to yourself...
2252 days ago
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