Monday, December 20, 2010
It seems that I always reassure my self that I'm not going to be like my mom - overweight. In the past I have joined weight losing programs, joined gyms and monitor what I eat, but here I am, the heaviest I've been while not pregnant - 182lbs. I currently have a membership to the Wellness Center through my employer, but don't attend regularly. I've been a memeber of Spark for a few months, and use to tools off and on. I struggle daily with the guilt of my weight and how it affects my life. In addition to the stress of the holidays, this next two weeks just make it tough. I brought some work out clothes with me today...and it just stares at me. With so much to do, presents to buy, I already have so many reasons not to go. I know it starts with me, now I just have to do it.