I donít know what you believe, but I have determined that the devil to my insides is gluten. I donít know whether or not I am sensitive, intolerant or have Celiac, but itís not good for me! Unfortunately I have to eat some every single day until January 5th.
Why would I do this to myself? Well I am having blood work, genetic testing, and an intestinal biopsy on the fifth and in order for all of that to be accurate I am on a gluten-full diet until then.
I have been back on gluten for a couple of weeks and it hasnít been fun. I am in a LOT of pain each day and well I wonít bore you or gross you out with all of the details of the rest of the problems.
Basically, I have a dilemma. And Iím curious to get some opinions.
At my consultation yesterday the gastroenterologist (doctor who specializes in the digestive tract) basically told me to eat lots of bread, Christmas cookies, you know: gluten, gluten, gluten.
However, I have been working hard this past month and have lost the five pounds that I had gained over my indulgent summer. I am down to a weight I havenít been at in over a year! So while Iíd love to just eat all kinds of goodies, I really donít feel like putting it all back on.
Itís sort of different, because people usually say ďdonít eat as though itís your last meal, you can always have another cookie tomorrow.Ē And things of that nature. But in reality, I have about two and a half weeks to eat things that I wonít ever get to eat again. I definitely have a problem with gluten, no matter what it is. So this really is my last chance to eat some commercial food items.
Why anyone would want to go on a gluten-free diet unless they have to is beyond me. Seriously, why was this a fad? There are definitely recipes that are good, and some gluten-free foods are alright. But they just canít compare! I really miss super chewy, doughy breads, cookies, and the like.
So my options are:
1. Eat a little gluten every day in the form of crackers or something else I wouldnít normally eat.
2. Use this time to indulge a little in foods Iím never going to get to eat again.
The only problem I see with #1 is that I would feel deprived. If Iím having to feel horrible and be in extreme pain, I might as well get to enjoy the food Iím having to eat, right?
The problem with #2 is that I know that one cookie usually leads to two or three. ESPECIALLY since Iíll have a voice in the back of my head saying ďYou know, this really IS the last time youíll get to eat this.Ē
I think of all of the random goodies I love that I wonít be able to eat at all once Iím gluten-free. Commercial doughnuts, muffins, cinnamon rolls, cakes, pies, cookiesÖ. There are so many options! I want to eat them all! You might have noticed that all of these things are sweet. I have always had a huge sweet tooth!
Every day this week I have had a vanilla cone from McDonaldís. The cone is definitely not gluten-free and my insides have reminded me of that every day. The problem is, as I am eating more gluten, I am CRAVING more gluten.
I went to bed last night with sweets dancing in my head. I had finally kicked my massive cravings by going gluten-free, and now they are back in full force.
Whatís a girl to do?
I really am looking forward to all of the testing because Iíd love to know what all is going on inside of me. I know gluten is one thing, but I didnít feel 100% better from just cutting it out. So I also wonder if there are other things at play. The genetic testing will really be interesting. I definitely am willing to go through the pain to find some answers. I just wish it wasnít all so confusing.
But, since I donít want to leave you without some pictures, please enjoy these virtual treats.
They are from New Cascadia Traditional a gluten-free bakery here in Portland.
Taste was great, but they crumbled apart when I was trying to break pieces off to share with Aubrey. Ugh!
For those limbo times when you have to eat gluten for a test. Oh wait, thatís just me!
If it were you, what would you do? To indulge or not to indulge? How do I ignore the sugar fairy on my back?