Friday, December 17, 2010
So I know that for the most part this site is all about the positive and that is what I should be focused on... but I have to tell you...I'm just not feeling it right now.
I just read my last post which was from over a month ago and I could have posted the same thing today. I feel overwhelmed with my day to day without even adding the holiday season into things. The holidays are having a particularly negative effect on me this year.
Our tree is up as are the decorations, the kids are excited of course, and I am doing my best to be festive but truth is that I want to cry. The only thing I want for Christmas is to have a happy and supportive marriage and that's not something you get with wishing. I am putting all my effort into this life of mine, but I can't be the only person to give.
I feel drained and sad.
Sorry to be a downer, but I needed to get some of this out of myself...
the baby calls...
I hope that everyone is having a happy holiday season.