I am beginning again.. Couldn't bring me back to Spark consistently for the past few months and I am seeing the results.. But now I have reassessed my goal and changed my starting point. God willing, I hope to be consistent this time.. So many people in SparkPeople reach their goal and I feel why not me? I know I have a limitation with my body that I may not get that far like others, but I can be consistent with atleast 10 minutes a day, except for the worst days.

But I have noticed that when I get up early to exercise, I get tired and sleepy earlier in the evening. May be I should try having something nutritional food in the evening? This is my first week and I am tired already. May be I'll take it easy during the weekend?

I don't like to see my recent pictures. They all have huge arms and cheeks. My shirts don't fit me in my arms well.. I really don't want to go about buying bigger sized clothes.. Now that I am in a different office, I don't have the previous lunch gang where I eat pretty much all junk that's in the table. So that is a good thing that has happened recently, though I miss their company.

I have given away most of my smaller clothes after coming to a conclusion that I may not get there. Even if I get there, I may not be consistent. Whatever is the case, I don't need them now. May be someone else needs them.

Work is getting hectic, but inspite of all that hard work, there's not much progress and recognition that I expected. And things are slowing down now for the holidays. I'll be travelling the last week in December and I'll have access to all the junk food in the world. How am I going to control myself to just a bite?

sorry.. venting after a long time..

Happy workouts!