Tuesday, December 14, 2010
I'm ashamed to admit this week I am not doing too good. Losing momentum, maybe? I don't think so... I mean, I haven't been working out A LOT but I haven't skipped my walks, which is a sign I'm still on track. I am not overeating, which must mean I didn't quit.
Yet these days have been somewhat hard.
I use my computer to work, do my home workouts and (of course) to spark. It wasn't working well so this morning I finally got it fixed. Or so I thought... it crashed twice today and I feel worried because I need it!!!! Of course I can use it (I'm actually using it now) but I need it to work at its best because if my computer doesn't work, I cannot work. And I do need to work.
Then, I just found out I MUST go to the dentist asap
and I got yet another email from my ex boyfriend and that always gives me mixed feelings. On the one hand, I feel happy because his emails make me feel he's still a part of my life. But, on the other hand, I feel sad because he's now living miles away from me and I miss him sooo much. I also got nervous because he told me he'd be coming to town for New Year's Eve... I'm silly enough to believe we've still got a chance because we've been on and off for like 8 years and we have this special bond.
Anyway, I am sharing all of this because these are the reasons that make me feel NOT hungry. That means I am eating below my range... not because I want to, but because I am just not that hungry...
I know the tooth thing and the computer thing have a solution. But the ex boyfriend thing doesn't... despite other people are sure it does. I just hope this situation won't ruin my weight loss efforts. What makes me feel mad at myself is that I was doing so good! But now I am all stressed out and I'm screwing up.
Sorry to share some personal details, but I just feel they have to do with my current (sinking?) eating habits.
I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP! I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!