Who will I be when my will surrenders completely to God's? Who will I be when God has his way in my life?

I will be confident in my work, school, looks, motherhood, marriage and spirituality. I won't apologize for being who God intended me to be. I won't search desperately for shadows in which to hide. I won't feel the frustrations of the continual inadequacies. I will be able to celebrate success and even failures. I will be confident.

I will be at peace. Checklists will be opportunities instead of obstacles. The incessant stream of "I have to....." will melt into "I get to....." I won't be defined by the titles I carry but only by who I am in Christ. I will be at peace.

Confidence and peace: How many hours on the treadmill have I consumed in their quest? How many calories have I restricted as I hunger for them? But no matter the gym time clocked, no matter the twinges of hunger ignored, I will not achieve confidence or peace.

It is only through God's grace that they are achievable. Confidence and peace are His gifts to give, not my prize to win.