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Roses Blooming In December!

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

I was out watering this morning in San Diego, and even though the mornings are cold, it warms up nicely. I noticed that a few of my miniature rose bushes are blooming (red, yellow and white), and it brought tears to my eyes.

So much loss this year, and still trying to heal from missing my dear cousin (like a sister to me). It's been a real challenge to refit the broken pieces of my heart in any semblance of normalcy. And absolutely beyond belief difficult in getting my life back.

The past couple of weeks have brought more tough stuff - another dear friend. He's suffering from a liver disease that is progressing fast. The thing about this person is that he doesn't want me to ask how he is; he wants to ignore it and it'll all go away.

So, I looked at the roses this morning and smiled through my tears. What a beautiful gift it has been to have had so many amazing people in my life! I'm just selfish in wanting to keep them around for a longer time. I've lost 9 dear friends and family members over the past three years. Not to mention my own life's bumps in the road. But we are all on this ship together and each have our own set of challenges to deal with as we roll through the turbulent seas.

Wishing all a wonderful day.
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  • NANCY-
    Right now it is 8 °F here.... today's high will be 29 if we are lucky.

    There has been a lot of loss in your life, but they have brought so much into into your life. Perhaps your friend wants to be treated like he always has been, not as someone who is ill. He is probably dealing with his loss and wants to hang onto the way things were.

    I love the way you think.... "have our own set of challenges to deal with as we roll through the turbulent seas. "
    We will get to safe harbor.
    2601 days ago
    emoticon So sorry to hear about your friend! glad the roses made you smile!
    2602 days ago
  • JLITT62
    I think maybe your cousin had something to do with those roses blooming. With your attitude, I know you will pull yourself out of your grief when the time is right. Hearts never go back to normal, but they can find a new normal.

    Wishing you the peace of the season.
    2603 days ago
    It's wonderful that we are given gifts we don't see coming that make us smile and bring joy to our hearts even in grief.
    2603 days ago
    It's amazing how even in the midst of pain, there are moments of extreme beauty. I'm glad that you are seeing them.
    2603 days ago
    How lovely that the roses made you smile through your tears. I can understand how you feel about your lost friends and relatives. We have also lost a number recently. Most of my friends were a lot older than me and I have gradually lost them. There are only 2 left now, one in her 80s and one in her 70s. We are lucky to have family nearby.
    2603 days ago
  • IAM_HIS2
    Oh, how I can relate to that pain, especially this time of the year. My heart goes out to you. So happy you were given the git of roses in December. Hugs to you!!
    2603 days ago
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