Wednesday, December 08, 2010
I was out watering this morning in San Diego, and even though the mornings are cold, it warms up nicely. I noticed that a few of my miniature rose bushes are blooming (red, yellow and white), and it brought tears to my eyes.
So much loss this year, and still trying to heal from missing my dear cousin (like a sister to me). It's been a real challenge to refit the broken pieces of my heart in any semblance of normalcy. And absolutely beyond belief difficult in getting my life back.
The past couple of weeks have brought more tough stuff - another dear friend. He's suffering from a liver disease that is progressing fast. The thing about this person is that he doesn't want me to ask how he is; he wants to ignore it and it'll all go away.
So, I looked at the roses this morning and smiled through my tears. What a beautiful gift it has been to have had so many amazing people in my life! I'm just selfish in wanting to keep them around for a longer time. I've lost 9 dear friends and family members over the past three years. Not to mention my own life's bumps in the road. But we are all on this ship together and each have our own set of challenges to deal with as we roll through the turbulent seas.
Wishing all a wonderful day.