Tuesday, December 07, 2010
So i need to complain. This school year has been close to terrible. the kids coming from the middle school know nothing because the school was in the process of being taken over by the state for not making ayp. They r so worried about us not passing that they r putting unbelieveable demands on us. I have coach class daily, i email/call parents daily, work with kids during lunch, call kids trying to get them to come to school, am in the building for 12+ hrs, etc. I havent been able to work out all year, cant get my papers graded, and am a grad student taking 2 classes a semester. It's terrible. My coteacher and I have both have days where we've said to ourselves if i dont wake up tom it wldnt be the worst thing. Y is it that teachers feel they deserve to be abused and if u dont give all of urself u shld feel guilty. Im close to back to where i was before and am not happy with myself. However, to make it worse.... my bf joined a gym with a friend. Hes worked out twice and is now pumped back up to where he was when he was playing football in hs. His arms, shoulders, and chest r noticibly muscular after two freaking gym trips! I cld kill myself for 2 yrs and not get the results i want. It's just not fair. What did i do wrong in life to deserve all this? I counted calories today and everything and bought myself a bike trainer for the basement but havent used it yet. Last weekend I tutored and babysat so it was like working full time 7 days a week and having no break. Sigh.... i just dont get it.