When I was racing every weekend in November, I was thinking ahead to the big Goofy race weekend in Walt Disneyworld in January. I know I'm not ready, and I've almost accepted that Goofy is going to have to wait until another year when I'm healed and fit. Still, I had intended to go full monty this month, making training my top priority and go into WDW weekend in the best shape I can be.
At the same time, it's been a strangely crazy intense time in every aspect of my life. The Special Tribunal for Lebanon is rumored to be handing over the case to the judge to issue indictments. For those of you who know what I'm talking about, things are very tense here right now. I'm working a lot to get as far as I can as fast as I can in case things turn ugly and works grinds to a stop.
After years of working in a dingy, grotty dump of an office, I finally found some cash and had it redone. Good-bye gross stained poop-coloured capet - hello gorgeous PVC flooring. So long furniture I -- literally -- swiped off a rubbish heap, and hello brand spankin' new fancy furniture. I have a big L-shaped desk with a matching triple bookcase, and a hot red sofa and matching chair. My old coffee table was, I kid you not, a lump of wood that we'd lacquered black. Now it's an ultramodern, super cool little number. Aiyeee! I also cleaned up all the random junk, and my office is clean, beautiful, and uncluttered for the first time in ... well, since I started. I've noticed that I have more energy when I work now. Isn't it funny that my environment affects me so?
It got me to thinking. My home and life are also cluttered, and they drain and distract me. I don't want to lose focus on my fitness goals, but re-doing my office has made me see how much my environment affects me.
I'm cleaning and decluttering my house. It's exhausting. I feel how unfit I am because I get tired so easily, but it's more than that. Just looking at all the "stuff" sucks the energy out of me. Don't get me wrong -- I'm not a hoarder by any stretch. It's just that I live in an open loft that has no storage space. Everything is out in the open, and it is just all too much.
Finally, I have a long mental to-do list. Constantly running it in my mind to try to stay on top of it is draining and distracting me as well. it just seems never ending. Again, it's not time management. I have great time management skills. What I lack is the energy to make the best use of my time.
Sooo, I'm trying to balance my need to clean and de-clutter my home with needing to get those things on my mental to-do list done with the fact that I only have a few weeks until I try to complete the race I've been gunning for since I first began training for races back in 2008. It isn't going to be easy, but I'm trying to make a plan to get a little further on each goal every day. I want to welcome 2011 feeling better about myself mentally, physically, and emotionally.