Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Well, I underate all day. Then I ran 3 miles at a good pace, did abs, went to orchestra, then went to Wal-Mart to buy supplies for tomorrow plus some food. Went WAY overboard on the food. Came home and ate alone (I HATE EATING ALONE) and then dove into a bag of cheddar SunChips. Body craving salt like mad -- Bah.
I hear it's bad to feel guilty about overeating because it's over. I still do, though.
I put tons of pressure to lose the weight by a certain date because I'm visiting my brother in California and a ton of people I know are going to be there. I want to be skinny and I want people to want to be like me. Is that so wrong?
Yeah, I know. Wrong motivation.
Sigh. Well, the life of a teacher is WAY stressful and I gotta beat this emotional / stress eating before it beats (eats) me.
Feeling stressed because this masters' program is high stakes and I'm starting to teach a whole lot more. People always say it must be easy being a teacher... but I am starting to think that if you actually care about your kids learning, it's not easy at all.
I did what SWEETNSKINNY told me to do -- I blogged about it. There, I came clean instead of hiding it. I was tempted to hide my failures but what's the use? It just prolongs the shame and shame just makes me feel worse about myself. Blegh.
It's tomorrow already. Sigh. I have Masters swim team tomorrow.
My plan is to eat balanced at every meal and escape to my room if I feel like my world is swirling.