Day 8

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

Well, I underate all day. Then I ran 3 miles at a good pace, did abs, went to orchestra, then went to Wal-Mart to buy supplies for tomorrow plus some food. Went WAY overboard on the food. Came home and ate alone (I HATE EATING ALONE) and then dove into a bag of cheddar SunChips. Body craving salt like mad -- Bah.

I hear it's bad to feel guilty about overeating because it's over. I still do, though.

I put tons of pressure to lose the weight by a certain date because I'm visiting my brother in California and a ton of people I know are going to be there. I want to be skinny and I want people to want to be like me. Is that so wrong?

Yeah, I know. Wrong motivation.

Sigh. Well, the life of a teacher is WAY stressful and I gotta beat this emotional / stress eating before it beats (eats) me.

Feeling stressed because this masters' program is high stakes and I'm starting to teach a whole lot more. People always say it must be easy being a teacher... but I am starting to think that if you actually care about your kids learning, it's not easy at all.

I did what SWEETNSKINNY told me to do -- I blogged about it. There, I came clean instead of hiding it. I was tempted to hide my failures but what's the use? It just prolongs the shame and shame just makes me feel worse about myself. Blegh.

It's tomorrow already. Sigh. I have Masters swim team tomorrow.

My plan is to eat balanced at every meal and escape to my room if I feel like my world is swirling.

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    I have some sunchips once in a while and don't feel guilty. You can work them into your plan and still be on target.
    2629 days ago

    That is wonderful that you got the miles in for the day. I need to get my butt into gear and start working out, it would certainly help my weight loss more. Just remember that not eating enough can also have a negative effect, but I am sure you already know that. LOL!

    It's always hard to go to the grocery store. Never go hungry, that's for sure. Otherwise you go off track and get things you don't need or want. I personally, dislike shopping, but I have to do it. LOL! I usually make out the list ahead of time and stick to it for the most part. That helps. I get a salty craving often, but I don't have anything in the house, so its really maddening but I am grateful after the craving subsides.

    I know the feeling of not letting go. I feel guilty too when I do something I shouldn't and I know the day is over and I need to move onto today, but I still allow that one mishap carry forward for days. I want to move on, but I can't.
    I think in time we will learn to handle this better, or so I hope.

    Don't forget to take time for yourself and find a stress reliever. Stress can pack on the pounds or lessen the amount of weight loss. Take small steps and try not to look at the end but rather what you are doing now. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and you have nothing to prove to anybody. As long as you are happy, that is all that matters.

    Sending you many blessings!! Sorry for the long novel. I am sure I could write more but I don't want to bore you.

    Have a great week!!!

    2634 days ago
    Good job friend. You fessed up! You can do this. Even if you have to focus an hour at a time. Breathe, relax and remember why you are doing this in the first place. Have a great day tomorrow!
    2635 days ago
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