Monday, December 06, 2010
I was involved in a car accident as a passenger in late June 2010. I sustained internal injuries of the spine, hips and shoulder. After 4 plus months of chiropractic and massage care I returned to work full time Nov. 1st., but it is only now that I feel I can get back on track to losing weight. In the beginning, the first 2 months I held tight to within 5 pds of my maximum weight loss, but in August and September I lost the battle. There was ssooo much stress, with getting to all of my doctor appts (9) each week, and dealing with the stress of work and being on short term disability, and my lease ending and looking to buy my first home...the weight crept back on. I knew I was eating to cope, but with everything else going on, and not having any accountability or support I justified eating poorly and eating anything and everything I wanted...(because I deserved it) Well the truth is I deserved to keep eating healthy and feel good. I owed it to my self to keep the 40 pds I had lost BEFORE the accident off and not let it back on, but I didn't love myself well enough to consider the consequences or the HARD work I had put in to losing the weight in the first place. I didn't realize how much it mattered...until now. Now I feel miserable, ashamed, discouraged, but there is still a flame flickering inside that is trying to get my attention, and today I AM GOING TO PAY ATTENTION TO IT. I need to find encouragement somewhere though. So today I am returning to Sparkpeople, eating right, and exercising. I have to recognize that at least in the gym I am "starting over", but I am 20 pds lighter than when I started Sparkpeople last January 2010. So here is to starting not "over" but "again".