Sunday, December 05, 2010
Wow...I can't believe it! Where did the time go? It's been four years since I started tracking my food and exercise on SparkPeople. Sure, I've fallen off the wagon a couple times, had a few missteps, taken a look at myself and said "oops" - but the ease and flexibility of SP enables me to pick up where I left off, start over (every day, if necessary), and see how the choices I make affect my body over time.
I've found I need to track my food every day, even once I decide to maintain. Blame it on my career choice (accountant), but I need to see the numbers in order to know I'm on the right track. Any other way, it's simply too easy to slip up, and the weight comes back. SP makes this process a numbers game for me, and I'll stick with that in order to keep the weight off.
I didn't own a scale or a tape measure when I started SP, so I'm not exactly sure of my starting weight or measurements. (The 236 on my ticker is once I purchased a scale, several weeks after starting SP.) I haven't kept any of my "fat" clothes. However, I do know that prior to SP, I was busting out of a size 20 from both JC Penney and Gap. Using their size charts, that gives me a waist size of about 37.5, and hips of 48, and a bust of 45. My measurements today are 35 bust, 27 waist, and 38 hips. I normally fit comfortably in a size 6. I weigh 157 pounds. Most importantly, I look like an entirely different person, as my pictures will attest, and I feel great!
I'm nearly finished with actually losing weight - maybe five pounds to go. Therefore, my weight-loss goals for this time next year revolve around my perception of myself. Despite the progress I've made, I still look in the mirror and judge myself harshly. I still see a fat person. I still feel "big". On one level I know that's not true - my BMI is on the lower side of normal, I receive positive feedback regarding my figure all the time, and I haven't found a height/weight chart yet that has indicated my weight is too much for my height. However, I struggle with self-image and am most assuredly my own worst critic. With that in mind, I'm hoping to GAIN self-confidence this year by surrounding myself with positive people who love and support me in my efforts to be happy with myself.
Wishing everyone has a blessed holiday season!