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Baby steps day 4 report - even some baby steps are hard

Friday, December 03, 2010

Yesterday I re-set my top weight here on SP. It was very hard to do - lowering, embarrassing - so hard I think it's worth 2 points. I hated admitting that I'm not just back where I started a year ago but actually heavier. And all the reasons why it happened don't alter the fact that I am. I seriously considered waiting till I was, at least, back to my original starting weight - it took me 4 days to get to the point where I could actually click on the weight tracking link. But then an idea came to me and I was finally able to do it.

It seemed to me that as long as I clung to the old numbers, I was clinging to the past. And you really can't have a perfect past, you can only have the past that is. Of course, it's only my past and nobody else cares or judges or is responsible for or even notices. It's my past. and happily, the past is past. It's not now. Now is where I am and I can start where I am.

So I opened the link and what do you know - there are rewards waiting whenever you do something hard! I could not only reset my weight but could reset my start date so that I could .... start where I am.

And so. I begin again, full of energy and hope and thankfulness. And how did I do yesterday?

1. Walk 30 minutes ____X___
2. 5 fruits and vegetables ____0___
3. reset my weight to reflect where I was when I started this baby step program. Time to 'fess up. ___XX___

Score 11 That's almost an hour of free time waiting up ahead.

I didn't eat 5 fruits and vegetables because I just didn't eat anything. I'm not sure what hit me - if it was tiredness or something else, but all afternoon I had little aches and at the grocery store I got really achy - so much so I began to suspect I was coming down with flu. No sore throat or fever but oh la! ached to death. I came home, took a hot hot hot bath, and went to bed.

This morning I'm thinking it was just extreme tiredness because I feel fine, but lordy - I slept for 9 hours straight.

My baby steps for today will be:

1. 5 fruits and vegetables
2. Only carrots to snack on in the car (I'm taking a road trip today and I've been craving carrots lately)
3. 8 glasses of water because it's sometimes easy to forget to drink water when you're driving

And so it's Friday - may yours be as sweet as a holiday.
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  • JLITT62
    VERY good job facing up to it; I know it wasn't easy. Achy here too, unfortunately, & the throat is bothering me. Traveling all day ain't helping. Hope u enjoy your trip!
    2640 days ago
    Brutal honesty is always a good start when we're dealing with ourselves.
    2640 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Well done on setting the ticker - and hope you enjoy your day with your girlfriend. I'm heading for an afternoon nap - not sure why I am so sleepy and have a long dance social tonight, and DD1's wedding anniversary celebration tomorrow night which will be a hum-dinger most likely. Maybe I've put my all into my gym sessions lately (but that's good cos it's starting to pay off) but now I need forty winks :)) this is not something that I do generally - reminds me of geriatric grandparents!! Oh, yes, I am one!

    2640 days ago
    I know just how you feel about regaining. Two or three years ago, I lost almost 40 pounds and in the time since, it found me and brought some friends! I now am almost to where I was when I was so proud of myself, but it has been since I got serious and started sparking.

    Be kind to yourself and do what you know works. As far as the rest that you got, I would say that was the most important thing at the time.

    Have a good Friday!

    2640 days ago
    Yes, it is hard to gulp and admit when we gain. i had to do that recently too. Two pounds, but still, it was clicking and making it show. Good baby steps. They work. One little step at a time.
    2640 days ago
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