Friday, December 03, 2010
Yesterday I re-set my top weight here on SP. It was very hard to do - lowering, embarrassing - so hard I think it's worth 2 points. I hated admitting that I'm not just back where I started a year ago but actually heavier. And all the reasons why it happened don't alter the fact that I am. I seriously considered waiting till I was, at least, back to my original starting weight - it took me 4 days to get to the point where I could actually click on the weight tracking link. But then an idea came to me and I was finally able to do it.
It seemed to me that as long as I clung to the old numbers, I was clinging to the past. And you really can't have a perfect past, you can only have the past that is. Of course, it's only my past and nobody else cares or judges or is responsible for or even notices. It's my past. and happily, the past is past. It's not now. Now is where I am and I can start where I am.
So I opened the link and what do you know - there are rewards waiting whenever you do something hard! I could not only reset my weight but could reset my start date so that I could .... start where I am.
And so. I begin again, full of energy and hope and thankfulness. And how did I do yesterday?
1. Walk 30 minutes ____X___
2. 5 fruits and vegetables ____0___
3. reset my weight to reflect where I was when I started this baby step program. Time to 'fess up. ___XX___
Score 11 That's almost an hour of free time waiting up ahead.
I didn't eat 5 fruits and vegetables because I just didn't eat anything. I'm not sure what hit me - if it was tiredness or something else, but all afternoon I had little aches and at the grocery store I got really achy - so much so I began to suspect I was coming down with flu. No sore throat or fever but oh la! ached to death. I came home, took a hot hot hot bath, and went to bed.
This morning I'm thinking it was just extreme tiredness because I feel fine, but lordy - I slept for 9 hours straight.
My baby steps for today will be:
1. 5 fruits and vegetables
2. Only carrots to snack on in the car (I'm taking a road trip today and I've been craving carrots lately)
3. 8 glasses of water because it's sometimes easy to forget to drink water when you're driving
And so it's Friday - may yours be as sweet as a holiday.