Thursday, December 02, 2010
This is probably the most important run I have ever done. Most of you know that I have been having some real issues with my IT band, so much so that I ran a little a few weeks ago and had to cut it off after mile 2 because the pain was intolerable. Last night I wanted to go for a run BAD. I really felt strong and ready ( you runners know what I mean, you really feel it, the mojo is there) but I was afraid to do it because i didnt want to get a few miles out then have to call for pick up not to mention it is pretty cold out right now.
I decided to go to the gym and do it on the TM there. It was so important to me that even though dinner was ready, I skipped. I knew if I ate, it was all over and it might be a while before I get to that place again. Strike while the iron is hot.
I found that after a short layoff from running, you lose alot of cardio fitness pretty quick and struggled through it. Normally I would blow through a 10K and then look at you like "is that all?" I had to dig deep and get my focus and my mental toughness back online. I wanted to quit after 3.1 but I HAD to do it. I was not in pain at all, just having to press on due to a lack of mental focus and detraining. I had my feelers out to punch the button at the first sign of trouble but it never came. All went well.
During the run/walk, mentally I was replaying memories from my past races and putting myself back into the excitement, the feeling of needing to dig in and perservere and the starting line excitement. When it was all over, I felt like I had finished a race, the pride, the sense of accomplishment, even a little "post race" commentary with one of the trainers on duty who commented how impressed they were that I was on the TM for so long.
What I gained from all of this is worth far more than calories burned or turining in some time but rather getting over the fatalistic "boo-hoo i'm injured" mentality, giving me hope that my future marathon in the spring may not be all washed up. I might have a chance to pull this off if I keep the stretching routine and rest.
The hope I now feel was worth the effort, the sweat, the late dinner. Im not a washout, Im only just getting started.
Sometimes you just gotta wanna!!