Time to reflect
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Today is December 1 and time to reflect over the past 11 months. I can't believe 2010 is almost over. I began this year at 184 pounds. It has definitely been an up and down year. I had an adjustment to my band last December but it didn't do a lot of good.
This year I have lost and gained and now am almost back up to what I was at the beginning of the year. As everyone knows I tried the HCG diet and did manage to lose to my goal weight of 165....I even got lower to 161 but didn't stay there long. I actually finished my six week maintenance programs by losing six pounds. But unlike the program says, I was not able to eat anything I wanted and keep it off. The day after my six weeks was up I fell and got two compound fractures in my back and was unable to exercise at all. That was September 3rd. Here it is December 1st and my back still hurts. I had began doing a little exercise and then found out my husband has lung cancer. Of course he comes before me and my exercise program went by the wayside. I have not been able to exercise at all since the end of October. He goes for treatments daily during the time my exercise classes are. Between not being able to exercise and eating way to much of the wrong things I have gained everything I lost on the HCG diet.
I find it amazing that I still weight approximately what I did before beginning the HCG but my clothes that I wore then feel tighter. I think when I regain my weight it doubles in size. Even the clothes I was wearing last December are tight and I actually weighed more than I do now.
Still I am over 100 pounds less than I was when I began this journey back in 2007. I will never see that weight again and I am thankful for that. I am considering having surgery on my back after the first of the year and my husband will be over his radiation treatments so maybe I can get back into my routine and get this weight back off. This month I just have to concentrate on not gaining anymore.
Sorry for the long blog but it's been a long time since I blogged and had a lot ot say.