Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Although I come from a large family, the loss of any one creates a huge hole in my heart. Both of my parents are gone...my father 31 years ago, my mother 2 years ago. However the pain of losing them some days does not begin to compare to the loss I still feel over the loss of my older sister...only 18 months older than me and my younger brother, only six years younger than me. Imogene became ill with encephalitis at the age of ten and lived a little more than year...being hospitalized the entire time. I was ten the year she died. I still remember her funeral and the service at her grave site as if it were yesterday. Her grave is only about 15 miles from my house and the little white lamb sitting on the top of her headstone still looks the same as it did 47 years ago. My younger brother was killed 28 years ago by a drunken driver who was never charged and "got away with it." Clyde was only 23 years old, the father of three young sons and the love of my daughters' and my lives. He and my SIL had been bowling and he was walking home from the bowling alley when the son of the city mayor swerved off the road and hit him...killing him instantly. The pain of his death is very strong today as I remember him today...the day of his birth. Sending you birthday wishes in heaven, my dear brother. My wish for you today would be that you could know the fine young gentlemen your sons, and the ladies my daughters, have become...you would be very proud of them as we all are. You may no longer have an earthly body but you still have a piece of my heart where you will remain forever. Your job on Earth was finished so God took you home.
What moves through me today is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, just one more touch or hug from you. I may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before I was ready to say good-bye, but little by little, I began to remember not just that you died, but that you also lived. And that your life has given me many memories to beautiful to forget. I will always love and miss you. Happy Birthday, Clyde!!!
Although I have been sad today, I still have to thank God for my family and all the wonderful memories I will always have...both the happy memories and the sad and painful ones. Praise him for dropping us all into one family together.
Praise God for ALL the blessings that I have received and not just for the few positives I have listed at the end of my blog. Blessings surround us always!!! May God continue to bless you as He has blessed me.
Tomorrow is the First of December. May the new month bring you new hope and a new chance to accomplish your plans and reach your goals.
Remember to look around and see all the positive things happening in your life and be thankful for them...
Blessings, love and hugs,
Searching for and finding the CURE
My brother and sister...May they RIP
My parents...May they RIP
My family...all the good and the bad
McKenzie's smiling face
My ability to walk
There is good in everyone and everything...
You can do it...if you try!!!
A new day every 24 hours to try and get it right
My family and friends both at home and on Spark People
Spark People which allows me to keep in touch with many friends
Serving lunches at the Senior Citizens Center
Water...so refreshing and delicious
Gluten free foods
Thank you so much for reading my blogs, supporting and encouraging me always!!! May God continue to be with you and bless you!!!