Sunday, November 28, 2010
I'm starting anew with SparkPeople and I think it is a good time to start using the blog feature here!
I have used Sparkpeople a couple times before this with some success but I always stopped for one reason or another. I think my mind wasn't in the right place the first time and I was trying to do it for the wrong reasons and without figuring out how to make the lifestyle change. The second time, I'm not sure if say that I stopped or not. I hit a plateau and the longer the plateau lasted the more discouraged I got and the less motivated I was to keep going. It is hard to motivate yourself to keep working out and tracking food when no matter how hard you work it does nothing to the scale. I stayed in that plateau for about a year until recently I came back to SP and started tracking food diligently and I've managed to dip under finally! I've also seen doctor to start managing my PCOS actively and I'm hoping that when I have medication to deal with my insulin resistence it will bring my metabolism up out of the toilet so that my weight loss will match my efforts a bit more.
I think the most encouraging thing right now for me has been that as bad as the plateau year was I didn't regain any of the weight that I'd lost. I lost about 30 pounds (yay!) and stayed there. I've never done that before! The most I'd ever lost was about 18 pounds when I did Weight Watchers in high school, but any time I ever lost weight I always gained it back and then some. So if I'm trying to see a positive side that would be it: I have ended my cycle of one step forward, five steps back and for that I am truly thankful.
In terms of the nitty gritty details, I am in my mid-twenties right now and I started out weighing 345 pounds at 5'9". I was a size 32 pant which scared the hell out of me because it was the largest size at the plus size store. If I gained any more weight I didn't know what I was going to do. Right now I am at about 310 and I met my first big goal of losing 10% of my starting weight. I think I wear about a 24 or 26 pant now. I definitely feel a lot more fit than when I was 345! I've been between 315 and 320 for so long now that it almost feels like a new starting weight but I feel better thinking about having started at 345 and how far I've come even just losing that 10%.
I feel like I'm mentally ready for doing this the right way. It is going to take a long time because I have a lot to lose but I'm making a lifestyle change so it can take as long as it needs to take! That's it for now I guess. Long first blog!