Monday, November 22, 2010
Okay- so I join the BL Challenge at my school,and this does motivate me as I have journaled every day and I have stayed with in my calories and balanced my carbs, proteins and fats for 12/14 days... and added a slew of water consumption to my days.... so yes it motivated me. BUT I stayed the same the first week and then the second week I GAIN 1.5 pounds... what the hell??!! The BL Challenge at my school is a "team" thing... and I am making my team a loser team in the sense that they look like gainers... not GOOD!
So today I bow out of that Challenge as I can't deal with the thought that not only is my body letting me down but also to my team members.
I am doing this for myself, and I have to do it my way-- and with my body going wirey due to lack of sleep I can't depend on anything happening on a weekly basis-- hopefully after 4 weeks things will come together for my body but it is just too screwy right now.
I am getting my CPAP on Tuesday 11/30 and I am hoping that with in a month of using it I will feel much better and be able to have gumption to exercise and that the biological affects of good sleep with take over.
I feel like a quitter but I am NOT-- I just don' t think a team challenge is the way for me right now. I am going SOLO... and feeling better with that decision.