Monday, November 22, 2010
Today is my one year Sparkversary. Yes it is one year to the day that I decided to take myself to task and make some lifelong, lifestyle changes. I had just had yet another warning that I was killing myself with food. I had got very breathless and lost consciousness through lack of oxygen to the brain.....it couldn't go on!!
I weighed in at 292(20st 12lbs) pounds and I was disgusted and ashamed of myself. I was relying on crutches to bear some of my weight so that I could go out. Only 2 years before that I had weighed 298 pounds but lost 48 of them quickly only to regain most of them following a broken leg.
On Nov 22 last year I knew that my attitude had to change before anything else. I decided that yes, ok I'm fat, probably super morbidly obese, unhealthy and lacked energy. Then I said to myself " Well suck it up and do something positive about it instead of moaning!"
I wanted to do it without pills or any other diet aids and I didn't want to compromise or embark on faddy programmes.....been there, done that......
I knew about Spark so I set up a page strtaight away and wrote down my plan.
At 5'3" I was carrying more than twice my ideal weight around with me which was quite daunting to say the least. Spark says that goals should be achievable and realistic so I set my overall target at 100 pounds (7st 2lds) to lose in 24 months. This meant an average loss of about 1lb per week. I could live with that!
I started my journey that day and met some lovely supportive people. I have 2 great sparkfriends that I meet up with occasionally and their encouragement and support is wonderful.
Today I weigh 222lbs, hence the three little ducks in the title. This number means that I have lost in total 70lbs SEVENTY POUNDS!! (5 stones). It also means that I have dropped into the next stone, I now weigh 15st 12 lbs. 222lbs. Still big for my height but what the heck! 8 dress sizes smaller, smaller undies, more shops to choose from and I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!
I have lost 13 inches from my waist, 11 inches from my hips and 8 inches from my bust. I can buy bras from Marks and Spencer for the first time in my adult life. Instead of using mail order companies
I am still aiming for the magic 100lbs loss but I'm breaking it down into smaller portions . ie my next target is 3lbs. This will take me to the two ones (219) and another three 3lbs losses will have me teetering on the brink of 14 stones something. I have another year in theory but as my eating habits are a way of life now the time line is less important.
You see, I will do this, it will happen and when I feel right, after the 100lbs are gone plus a bonus of a further 12 just for the hell of it, I will learn how to maintain the healthy me and get as much as I possibly can out of this life that I am so grateful for.
I have learned to carry on through weeks of plateaus and disappointing weight losses. I know that there are no 'bad' foods only bad habits. I have learned to like myself and forgive myself for the damage I so wilfully did to my body. All that is in the past and can't be undone. However, looking to the future fills me with such excitement as I get closer to achieving my dreams, by doing the activities that I haven't been able to do for over 40 yes FORTY years!
I also look to my successes and congratulate myself. Well to be honest, I do amaze myself sometimes.....Lol