Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Take the bulk of my Lympatic left leg, add in the grinding crunch of my arthritic knees and stir in a split-entry stairway....and you get a painful approach going upward or downward. Often I can't avoid that expanse of stairs ~ especially if I want to leave the house.
Monday, I forced myself to take shakey & pain filled steps downward, stopping for a moment to retrieve a package that had been sitting by the front door since Saturday (the day we got 11 hours of snow). Then it was down the next seven to retrieve laundry that had been in the dryer for well over a week.
Decided to take a short break, resting my knees - which isn't always the best of ideas, as it's so painful to standup again.
So, I managed the first 14 steps ~ now to climb back up them, a feat that even a fat girl can handle if taken slowly. Steps 20 & 21, I was starting to feel the burn, so decided to rest a bit before heading up the last seven.
Hmmm...let me just say, getting down was WAY easier than trying to stand back up! My knees feel like they are grinding bone-on-bone. I stand up, walk a bit in the front entry to get my balance - do some major self-talk and attempt my upward movement.
So, for a fat girl with Lymphedema & Arthritis ~ those last seven steps (out of 28) seemed like an adventure climbing Mount Everest. I knew it would be painful & after each step I reassured myself that I was almost to the top. By the time I reached steps 27 & 28 - I promised myself that I could take a nap when I reached the top! lol
What the heck - if mind games get me to the top - why not?
Now it's Wednesday & another package has arrived ~ I have already resolved to staying in my house ALL winter long ~ adjustments in life style are in the making. But am I stupid enough to try the steps again?
Life adjustments - like retrieving mail, delivering groceries, and getting INR-Protime monthly checkups. And there is the dreaded - who will keep me from crawling the walls? Do I have enough quilting projects to keep me absorbed for the next 3-4 months? I certainly have enough genealogy work to keep me busy for that length of time.
You see that big black box that sits in the corner of my living room? A TV that hasn't had cable since 1995 ~ when I resolved to not pay for TV ever again & to save my money for traveling. It remains a "black box" to this day and quite frankly I don't miss not being a couch-potato every night of the week.
Can I hope for a short-lived winter season in Minnesota? Probably not ~ but I continue to make a stubborn effort to keep moving forward. I'm continuing on with the three C's in life ~ Chance, Choices and Change....
I'm taking a Chance to make better Choices to enable Change in my life!