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Twenty-eight steps.....

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Take the bulk of my Lympatic left leg, add in the grinding crunch of my arthritic knees and stir in a split-entry stairway....and you get a painful approach going upward or downward. Often I can't avoid that expanse of stairs ~ especially if I want to leave the house.

Monday, I forced myself to take shakey & pain filled steps downward, stopping for a moment to retrieve a package that had been sitting by the front door since Saturday (the day we got 11 hours of snow). Then it was down the next seven to retrieve laundry that had been in the dryer for well over a week.

Decided to take a short break, resting my knees - which isn't always the best of ideas, as it's so painful to standup again.

So, I managed the first 14 steps ~ now to climb back up them, a feat that even a fat girl can handle if taken slowly. Steps 20 & 21, I was starting to feel the burn, so decided to rest a bit before heading up the last seven.

Hmmm...let me just say, getting down was WAY easier than trying to stand back up! My knees feel like they are grinding bone-on-bone. I stand up, walk a bit in the front entry to get my balance - do some major self-talk and attempt my upward movement.

So, for a fat girl with Lymphedema & Arthritis ~ those last seven steps (out of 28) seemed like an adventure climbing Mount Everest. I knew it would be painful & after each step I reassured myself that I was almost to the top. By the time I reached steps 27 & 28 - I promised myself that I could take a nap when I reached the top! lol

What the heck - if mind games get me to the top - why not?

Now it's Wednesday & another package has arrived ~ I have already resolved to staying in my house ALL winter long ~ adjustments in life style are in the making. But am I stupid enough to try the steps again?

Life adjustments - like retrieving mail, delivering groceries, and getting INR-Protime monthly checkups. And there is the dreaded - who will keep me from crawling the walls? Do I have enough quilting projects to keep me absorbed for the next 3-4 months? I certainly have enough genealogy work to keep me busy for that length of time.

You see that big black box that sits in the corner of my living room? A TV that hasn't had cable since 1995 ~ when I resolved to not pay for TV ever again & to save my money for traveling. It remains a "black box" to this day and quite frankly I don't miss not being a couch-potato every night of the week.

Can I hope for a short-lived winter season in Minnesota? Probably not ~ but I continue to make a stubborn effort to keep moving forward. I'm continuing on with the three C's in life ~ Chance, Choices and Change....

I'm taking a Chance to make better Choices to enable Change in my life!
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    Oh my gosh I would have a hard time living that far up north. I am not a winter person! I also have not had cable for the last 5 years or so. I do miss being able to watch the news but I don't miss the bill! I can sure sympathize with the struggle with the stairs. I am lucky that I only have to navigate two to leave the house but standing for long periods of time is difficult and makes it hard to get out and do things. I am proud of you for navigating the steps! Things will get better! emoticon
    2675 days ago
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    I'm remembering, when I was a little girl in the early 1960's, we had elderly neighbors who paid my brother and I a nickel to bring their trash cans up the sloped driveway for them every week. We liked having a "job" and a nickel bought a small size candy bar (see, even then I spent all my money on fattening food!) Maybe you could ask the neighbors you know if they know families on your street with young, grade school aged kids who you could pay a small amount to periodically carry things up and down stairs for you. Also, if you can't move, I'm wondering if there is the possibility of having a washer dryer hookup installed on your upper level so you could relocate your laundry equipment to your main living level and avoid having to haul it up and down. I know it would cost some money, but if you can't move, it might be worth the expense for the degree it would help your pain. I hope you figure something out. I'm saying a prayer for you!
    2676 days ago
    A big pat on the back for trying the steps......... now what is this about 11 hrs of snow??????? Good grief!!! I am sure you will find something to occupy your time. Sometimes I wish our TV was in the "OFF" position at times.......it occupies some empty times
    You be careful on those steps girlfriend!!
    2676 days ago
    Today I intentionally took the stairs in a parking garage. I took my ability to walk up and down those stairs for granted. I am sorry you are housebound. Do I remember that you were looking into moving...someplace without stairs? Do you own your home and are unable to relocate to someplace that would be easier? Can you get the fluid out of your leg so that some day you could get the joint replaced to stop the pain? Sorry for all the questions. I just hate hearing that life is such a struggle.
    2677 days ago
    Good for you making all that effort. Now you have to do it again! emoticon
    2677 days ago
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