Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Have you ever noticed the phenomenon of people who seem to crawl out from the woodwork? Where on Earth do they come from? You get into a huge fight with your spouse and undoubtedly, while you are at work, a very pleasing to the eye person, who seems to have all of the right words, just so happens to be quite interested in you. Or you get a ring on your finger and suddenly you are fighting them off with a stick? I do not believe that this is coincidence in the least bit. Run, don't walk. Always been my philosophy anyways. Heh heh. Stupid runner's puns anyways. These people will always find you in your most vulnerable of moments, the moment when your resolve is weakest and they will fester like a disease or perhaps a vulture waiting for the right moment. It has happened to me more times than I can count yet no matter how dim things may be looking at the moment through my perspective, I know that I must stay strong because this is indeed the battle between good and evil taking place. If I had allowed myself to surrender to the evil, I would most likely be the next vessel employed down this treacherous path. The path to fill my hunger for personal power, whether this power is self-confidence, the concept of beauty, recapturing what was lost in the past, etc, through the expense of others weaknesses. It has happened again for those of you who may have read my last poem, Snake In The Grass, if it can even be considered a poem, I'm terrible with structure ;)
This guy has remained a snake who likes to recur in my life. As I would get into a relationship with someone who I was only mildly interested in, he would come back into the picture and try to weasel me to infidelity of the heart, infidelity of integrity. If cracks were beginning to form, he would come back into my life and try to widen those cracks. I am a very strong-willed person so I have not broken, yet I am human and definitely feel the draw of this temptation. But he is not the only one and I know that everywhere I go, there will always be more snakes circling. Not just for me but for all of us. It is not common that I share such raw emotion and really get into the depths of my soul with people even in a little old SparkPeople (and yes, this word was the only one switched from the blog on Facebook, LOL.) blog but I feel maybe I can help others if I can impart the wisdom I have learned.... I can only hope.