Thank you for being brave and sharing. I relate to your thoughts totally. I cannot trust my brain to tell me how healthy I look. I also thought I was doing okay. I decided not to weigh myself for a year and a half and thought I was doing pretty great...NOT. I had gained 25 lbs during the year and a half. My brain was of no use! I keep telling myself baby steps. You can do this! 2144 days ago
You are gonna do great! The only person who can change you is YOU! I know you can do it. It seems that you have the drive and ambition. Make realistic goals and meet them often to keep your spirits high. Don't forget to measure and don't just weigh yourself. The scale lies sometimes! Check out aprilrain888, she'll tell you just how much a scale can lie!
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I am a reverse anorexic in my mind as well....photos suck!!! You do look really pretty in the pictures though - even though you probably can't see it. Looking forward to more video blogs - or vlogs :o)
remember you can do this one day at a time, if you look to much to the future it is discouraging. Why don't you just try moderation ? I have not counted a calorie (but in my mind approx.) or point because I don't want to. I know what is fattening and don't eat much of that or sweets. You can eat anywhere, just eat less. Portion size is a BIG thing when it comes to weight loss, and sometimes we don't know what portion size is. Check out the portion size and you will probably be surprised. Also key drink water !!!!
yeah weight watcher stuff does seem to be a pain. i can barely stand to log calories. :P but if u dont come face to face with what yer putting in yer face weight loss will be real hard. what i found weird about your photos is. we weigh almost exactly the same. youre even 3 inches shorter than me. but i feel u look pretty good when u say u look horrible. if i look at photos of me though...i feel that i look terrible even though we're the same weight.
i think its just that we have different visions of ourselves in our heads and its a shock to see something different in the mirror than what is in our heads.
good luck to u and hope to hear more from u! 2144 days ago