and it wasn't fun, but I came through it. I decided not to make decisions (especially ones I already knew were bad), but it was a difficult time of it today. IN the midst of it, I did some reaching out to people, talked to my family about my bills that scared me, and then this evening, was making a list of people to call about financial things in different areas, and decided to check my bank account.

Lo and behold, the money from the unemployment office had been deposited in my bank. I breathed a great sigh of relief, and told my family about it. So I will have money to pay some bills that are looming over me. God truly does provide (and I had taken action earlier), so I think this will work out, little by little.

It does make me realize I need to be much more diligent about taking care of things here. I will be happier if I at least vacuum the house and keep the pressure on to clear out paperwork, miscellaneous stuff, and get rid of things I don't use anymore.

Thanks be, the panic attack is over. I think I will be able to sleep after all.