Monday, November 15, 2010
All last week I felt frustrated, sad, and hopeless. I wanted to delete my spark page and start all over. I didn't want to admit that my weight had crept up to 161 (weigh-in as of Friday). All my weight loss efforts down the drain. But I confronted my setback and changed my tracker all the way to 161. Well, today I weighed-in and I'm 158.2. Ugh. I don't know what is it about the numbers but it gets to me. Anyways, I'm going to use the scale as a tool to track my progress and not to control the way I feel.
So, yesterday I had the best experience ever. I completed my first 5K at the Stockton Half Marathon. The night before my 5K I was anxious. I did not know what to expect. I felt like I was not going to be able to make it since I did not trained enough for it. But once I arrived at the event, I felt some sort of inspiration by seeing over +1,000 people there. People of all sizes. The half marathon runners began 15 minutes before the 5K runners. Then we took off.
Once I started, I kept telling myself that I would keep going no matter what. I felt inspired and motivated, so I kept going non stop until the second mile. In the second mile I walked/ran. By third mile I pushed myself to finish line and when I crossed, I finished in 34 minutes!!! I was surprised. I thought I would finish at 40-45 minutes. That feeling made me believe in myself. And here I am, back on track. It's amazing how one's mind is so powerful. It's all in the mind.
Here are some pictures. I wished I would have taken a friend to capture my running.